Invisible // a Luke Hemmings fanfiction

Chapter 1

You know that feeling you get when you finally realize that a certain person has left you forever? That's what I'm feeling right now. It's been seven months since I've actually talked to anyone. I haven't left my room unless it was for food or to use the bathroom. I bet nobody has even realized I haven't been to school. It's not like they would care. It's not like I have friends. I, am just-just invisible. Everyone would be happier if I was gone. There would be more space. I'm not sure how, but I am positive I will go home.

It's been 7 months since the love of my life has passed away because of me. It was my fault, I know it was. The pain is unbearable. I will never forgive myself. It should've been me to die in that accident, not him. Life is just so hard. I hate it. I hate myself. I hate everyone. I hate everything. I have finally realized that he is gone. He is never coming back. Josh would've wanted me to be happy, right? I just can't be happy. No matter how hard I try, it just doesn't work. It's just impossible for me to be happy. I mean I can try going to school again. Maybe. I'll have to try talking to my mom first. Who knows. If I'm not dead by tomorrow morning I guess I'll try.