I drowned myself in music. I stained myself in art I do everything to escape this world. All the lies. Brokenness inside me. It's to intense....If only I could reach for the sky ....I would spread my angel wings and fly....but inside it hurts. My chest burns with the fire that'll forever damn me... I'll never be more than a demon. I've always been that way since my tragedy....I don't always mention it because it hurts to....I only mention it because I want people to know.....I used to love...I used to smile....laugh....I used to be my true self.....Now I can't remember a time where I didn't fake a smile.... I can't remember when I laughes in joy. I can't even remember my true self. I've lost it all since my tragedy....but my wounds will never heal.......I'm forever a lost demon. Wandering this earth ....I cry myself to sleep.....I fake smiles.......Even my so calles CONTAGIOUS LAUGH is a fake. Every part of me is.....I'll never be true because I lost my truth when my tragedy happened......But sometimes I think of my memories before the tragedy and remember....I used to be a good person a true person.....now I cry and sob at the memories because they'll never be true again....I'm lost and never to be found.......
