Your ex-best friend passed you on to me. You were now mine and I was now yours. We wanted nothing but to be in each others arms. I always thought this was love at first sight, looking back I cant believe I was so gullible and stupid to believe what we had was one of a kind!
You always said you loved me , you acted like cared. If only I knew that you'd lied to me then. but now, you're gone, it hurts. I can feel my heart crumbling into a thousand tiny fragments. You left me broken while you knew the things I battled with constantly in my mind! the lions trapped there, clawing at what's left of me... you just packed up and left you moved on and left me stranded her. I miss you. I love you. I thought you loved me too. but all you ever told me was lies, all of it made up. You left my friends to clean up the mess you made, to stop me losing it completely. I was so stupid to let you in.
I still think about you sometimes. these drugs aren't strong enough I can't forget! You've left the word 'forever' engraved in my mind. you said you you'd never leave, you promised! You broke that promise though didn't you!?
But now I'm stronger than you'll ever be. I've fixed myself, but elements of you still remain encased in the back of my island of a mind. they will never go away. I'm unable to trust anyone else in fear of being abandoned once more. in scared of getting attached to people because I know their capability's. I will never be the same. Mental scars remain, and they will never fade...
you were special, but screwed me up!!
YOU ARE READING
I was your mistake...
ContoI know this is awful but its the first thing I ever wrote properly. I wrote it after my first break up. and it might seem a little crazy but I'm putting this up so you can see how much my writing has changed over time. please don't hate, I wrote i...
