We Meet Again... (Harry Styles Fanfic- One Direction)

Hardships and Confusion.

*Warning! There is a little language in this!

(HARRY POV)

No matter how much I wanted to lay with Emma forever, It was time to get up eventually. Guilt was weighing on my mind. No matter how many times I try to push it away, it kept creeping back like a bad dream. The guilt was that I was laying with another women other than my wife. I wasn't sure how I felt about Alysha now. Or Emma for that matter. I didn't know what to do. I said those things to Emma and I meant it with all my heart, but there's the other part of me that still is in love with Alysha.  We didn't have the best relationship in the past year but that didn't change that I still cared about her. I couldn't do this without hurting either of them. I just... need to be alone. I crept off the couch and kissed Emma on the cheek while she was asleep. Just sneak out before she notices Harry, it's for the best and you know it. My subconscious was right, I need to clear my head. I hurried out the door before she noticed and quickly drove off. I just started driving, no place specific but I knew where I was headed... home. It took about 30 minutes to get home and the whole time my mind was some place else entirely. Emma. I shook my head and took deep breaths. I was home. Before I could even step out of the car, Alysha was running over to me like a mad person. 

"Hi baby! Where were you? I tried to reach your cell a million-" 

I cut her off and kissed her. I needed to. I needed to see if I felt the same intensity with her as Emma. I waited.... and waited. It wasn't there. Why don't I feel a single spark? It sounded cheesy, but it just... wasn't there. At all. I felt like it was a normal, friendly kiss. With Emma, it was as if we kissed for the first time. Everything inside me ignited with her. Alysha must have noticed something because she pulled away. She looked at me with worried and confused eyes. 

"Something is on your mind Harry, I can feel it. Tell me." She smiled, but the smile didn't really reach her eyes. 

"Oh nothing nothing, it's just I have alot of things on my mind." I tried to walk past her but she pulled me back. 

"Harry, tell me. I'm your wife, remember?" 

I did remember. That's why I left the girl I just cuddled and made out with. Or else I never would have left. 

"Yeah, yeah I know. It's just something I really don't wanna talk about. Okay?"

She tensed and let go of me, her mouth turning into a straight line. "You're not going to tell your wife? We are supposed to be in this together." 

"Why do you keep saying "your wife" I get it you're my wife." 

Everything about her mood changed. It's like she knew my deepest secrets just by looking at me. She wasn't the careless, free, happy hearted, girly girl I met she was cold, broad looking, tough. She stepped forward and slapped the hell out of me. I was in shock. What the.. 

"That teaches you Mr.Styles not to fuck other girls while you're married to me you tool." 

I didn't know why but I wanted to slap her back, but I would go to jail and that wouldn't be very good so.. I just started yelling. "I didn't "fuck" anybody Alysha. Give me that. But yes I will admit that I did kiss somebody." I muttered the last part under my breath but oh, she still heard it. 

She screamed, like a piercing bloody murder scream. "YOU KISSED SOMEBODY?" 

"Alysha, let me explain, please." I calmly started walking over to her but she kept backing up. 

"I don't want you near me right now. How could you Harry?" She started crying and I felt bad instantly. 

"I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me i just-" 

"It was with... her. Wasn't it?" She started crying harder and I didn't know what to do. Should I walk over to her or should I go? I don't know. I just stayed put.

"Yes, but listen, Alysha, I want to be with you." I couldn't stop the words before the came out of my mouth. I didn't know if I meant it but it just seemed like something I needed to say in this moment.

"You do?" She looked up at me with hopeful eyes and I couldn't help but feel more guilt. For doing this to Emma. But she wasn't my wife.. 

"Yes.." I dragged it out and sighed. 

"Then I forgive you! For everything! I do, I do!" She ran into my arms and out of instinct I wrapped my arms around her. She was beautiful, she was kind, she was perfect for me, but part of my heart ached for Emma. I don't think that feeling would ever go away. She muttered into my ear, whispering chillingly cold, "I don't want you ever seeing her again. Understood?" 

What?

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if you ask me, I would say that this is a pretty sucky chapter! But i wanted to write something because..... I REACHED A THOUSAND VIEWWWWS. ah. that may seem like not alot but ya know. Its alot to a losa like me ;) yeah. there is actually a one direction concert in my state this weekend!!!!! but guess what??? I couldn't get tickets :( there were mad exsepensive and i was like nah. but im excited for my friends that are going! If your going too, then i hope you have fun as well :) okay well enough blabbering, i hope you liked this! update soon my lovess. xxx