Special Kinda Love (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 8

She almost fell out of her seat with the news. "Are you serious?" Holly's eyes were wide with shock and disbelief.

"Pretty fucking serious." Gail's face was grim as she tossed the pregnancy test onto the table top between them.

Holly looked to the test and low and behold it was positive. "These things can lie, maybe it's just a false positive." She said hopefully.

Gail shook her head. "I took like twelve, they all had the same fucking plus sign. It's real."

Holly swallowed hard and sat back in her chair. She stared at her best friend, her pregnant best friend, and wondered what to do. How was she supposed to react? To help and support? She'd never been in the situation before, never had anyone else so close in her life confine in her such a thing. And to top it off it was Gail. Gail Peck, pregnant before her parents told her to be, that wasn't going to go over well. If that was what Gail wanted, maybe she didn't even want to keep it, maybe she was asking her to help. She was the one fresh out of school to be a doctor. Holly bit her lip, she wasn't sure how to ask nicely, but that probably wasn't the way to go with the blonde anyway. Gail hated it when people beat around the bush and sugar coated things.

"Do you know what you want to do?" She met the horrified blues she'd come to know so well.

"Not entirely." Holly nodded along sympathetically, like she knew how the blonde felt. "But-but I think I might want to keep it."

Holly opened her mouth to say something, her eyes no doubt saying all her worries before she ever could, but Gail cut her off with a hand.

"I know, I know. It's stupid, I'm childish, I know nothing of raising a child, I'm single, I'm barely making it through with the money I have and I have to go to the academy soon. And after that I'll be a rookie, my job will be stupidly dangerous, I'm a wreck of a person, vegetables aren't even on my radar of foods. I mean I live on your couch because I couldn't stand to stay home long enough to find a place of my own. People hate me, I'm cold and a bitch." Gail rushed out all of her points, at first she was strong and ready to defend but it soon changed into despair. There was a long moment before she continued. "I shouldn't. That was a stupid idea. Me a mother." She bitterly chuckled at the words. After a quick shake of her head she looked up into Holly's eyes and sighed heavily. "Do you know where the closest abortion clinic is?"

Holly's heart broke. Gail had been generally excited for a moment, had started to fight for something all on her own, that was something Holly hadn't been witness to many times. She didn't want to see it go over Gail's self-hate, over her insecurities, she wanted Gail to make the decision knowing everything about both sides. Holly place a hand over her friend's. "Gail, if you truly want to abort I'll support you, but if you want to keep it then I'll do all the research and help you with everything."

"I shouldn't be a mom, Holly, I'd be terrible. I'd screw them up and we all know it."

"No you wouldn't. I promise. Know how I know?" A small smile crept it's way onto her face. Gail only met her eyes again. "Because you are already worried about it, you already want to be the best and worrying comes with the job. It's like the right of passage for parents, no matter how good you are you'll always worry about screwing them up."

"Even if that's true the other stuff I said greatly out weighs it." Gail grumbled.

"You will find money, hammy-downs and gifts will be life savers. As for housing, my lease is almost up so we can find a place and when you're ready you can leave. You'll grow up, it's inevitable, plus I'll be there too. We can do this. You can do this." She gave what was gentle answers and turned it into a pep-talk of sorts. She wasn't quite sure why, it just seemed like the right thing to do, like the thing Gail needed. She nudged Gail hand, "if it's what you want. There's nothing wrong with aborting."