Alone

Chapter 2: Last Chance

I head over to a big tree that I have carved my name into with a rock when I was little. There is a little hole at the bottom in which I stored my stuffed bear and bunny, when I wanted to play I could just take them out. I reach under and pull them out, they were dirty and a torn but still intact. I give a sigh and put them back under hoping the squirrels don't take them as hostages.

I lay on the cold ground with my hands crossed over my stomach just looking at the sky and the leafless trees. Sleep is about to claim me but I hear leaves crunch behind me. I freeze, thinking that it was one of the bears that was reported seen in here. I turn slowly and find....

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Out of the bushes comes a black cat with green alluring eyes. My heart beat slows down as I see it is harmless. We stare at each other for a moment, it rests on its paws and just looks at me. "What," the cat meows and walks up to me, it rubs its body on my arm. A smile sneaks its way to my face as I pick up the cat. It meows again. I hold it in the air, checking it gender. 

"Ah, your a boy," he meows again and starts to struggle in my hands. I set him down. "I am going to name you, Midnight. He ignores me and starts cleaning his fur. I notice when he turns to his right he is missing a little patch of fur. "You have been fighting haven't you?" he looks up and meows again before going back to cleaning himself. 

"Your just like me huh," I pet his head. He rubs his furry head in my palms before getting up and sitting in my lap. I smile down at Midnight, he purrs an rolls over on his back letting me rub his stomach. "I wonder if I can take you home," my parents don't like pets, they think they are dirty, stinky, and too much money, the only one they can accept is Snow which is dumb. So I guess I am going to have to sneak him in.

I make it home with the cat tucked in my jacket. "meow," the cat starts to wiggle around. "Stop, you have to be still or they will know I have you," I open the door and close it quietly, checking if everything was clear I ran up to my room and shut and locked the door. I let out a puss of breath that I didn't know I was holding. The cat jumps from my arms and inspects me room, he goes under my bed and then comes out the other side to play with my windows blinds. 

"Oh stope it Midnight," I pick him up and sit on the bed. "Meow," he purrs and rubs his head against my arm, I smile down at him and gently pet behind his ears. "You seem so pleased, its funny, I never thought the first friend i would make would be a cat." He just purrs before falling asleep on my lap. I pet him for a few more minutes before i start to make him a little e bed in my closet so no one finds him. 

Finally finished I turn to retrieve Midnight......but he's gone. I search around the room knowing he couldn't have gotten out because the door was locked. "Midnight, Midnight where are you?" I whisper. I don't even her the tiniest of noise, it's silent. Where could he have gone, how could he disappear in suck little time in such a small room. I start to panic and I search even more frantically. I almost give up when I see my curtains swaying from the wind outside. He couldn't have...he did. I walk over to the window to see that I have left it open from last night because it was to hot. 

My heart drops, he left, already. I rest my elbows against the windowsill and lay my chin in my hand. The tree near my window sways with every gust of wind that blows by. A thought forms in my head...what if I left like Midnight...what if there was something out there for me, something more. Just something that wouldn't make me feel so lonely. 

Things were always this lonely when I was a kid. I had no one to play with because people thought I was strange so I kept to myself. My parents gave my older brother more attention since he was athletic  and was the "good apple" of the family, and then my little brother came along and I thought they were going to pay attention to me more but once again I was shut out. Maybe they didn't want an daughter, maybe I was an mistake. 

The thought cut deep into my heart but I brushed it away like it was dirt on my knee. Midnight leaving was unexpected, I thought he would stay since he was given a warm place to live, but I guess you can't really tame the wild, the wild tames you.

Maybe I am one of the wild and I have been trapped in a cage my whole life. What if I escape from this cage...what would happen then. I don't want to hurt my baby brother even though he is a pain in the arse. I could care less about anyone else. 

I probably sound cruel, and I hope I can be forgiven, I hope I am understood. Time has passed by fast, it is now the afternoon. James and Toby should be fine without me, they have mom and dad. I want to have someone. There is a knock at the door, "sissy, let me in," I don't go to open it and he knocks a little harder. "Sissy," he starts to whine. "Hey, be quite I'm on the phone," James yells, "just let him in." 

I should take my chances right, don't I deserve that happiness? One foot out the window, then the next, I grab onto the branch on the tree and climb down. I hear my door being unlocked, probably James. "Jesus, does it really have to be so much drama with you all the time, where are you," I start to panic. "Raven, quit playing around! Hey what are you doing!" my eyes widen. He is looking down at me from my window. I jump from the last branch and start to run, I can hear my door slammed shut as I start to run faster. 

He is going to come stop me, he is going to take it all away again, he is going to take my one chance. This isn't the first time I have tried this, I thought it would be easier if I could just escape it all. "Emily stop, we are not going through this again!" I staring even harder to run faster, James being an athlete is a disadvantage. Tears blur my vision, "I am not going back there, I am not going back there and watch everyone around me, I don't want to be under appreciated any more!" 

I push harder to speed up, the sound of James feet against the pavement stops. "Fine! I am tired of chasing after you, everyone is tired of having to worry about you, don't you get it, your nothing but trouble!" he is still yelling but it fades as I get farther away. It's not my fault, I am not the cause of this, I just want affection, I just want love, I jut want to be loved! 

I can barely see from my tears, but that doesn't stop me from running. My mom and dads car turn the corner and start coming my way, they are coming home early then expected. I slow a little maybe they will notice me, maybe they will see how much they have pushed me to run from them like this. 

The drove right past me.

I turn and watch them go up the street, they didn't even notice me. Am I that unimportant....am I that insignificant that they wouldn't recognize their own child. The tears really start to fall, I let out a sob and clench onto my shirt over my heart as to keep it from falling out of place. I look up to the sky, "please God, help me, please," I beg. 

I numbly start to walk down the sidewalk and into the city. Cars pass by quickly and busy business people rush past me to get to work or to get home. I am roughly shoved around as I fight against a crowd of business men and women. "Move out of the way!" some guy yells and pushes past me. I make it through, checking to make sure my bones are still intact because that crowd was a rough beating on my skin. 

My will to keep going is to strong, I can't and I won't give up, no matter what i'll find a place in life. 

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