My Little Secret

#lazy night in

Me and zoe carried on chatting about life and joe throughout out shopping. We got a takeaway from nandos before we went back to the house. When we walked in both joe and alfie were doing a snapchat story. I went behind joe and zoe went behind alfie we both grabbed there waists and made them jump.
" aaaahhh" they both scream turning around laughing
"We got nandos " zoe says placing the food on the table.
" you know me to well sis " Joe says giving her a hug. We all grab our laptops and place them on the table zoe grabs four plates and four glasses and a bottle of coke.
" right now show me some of your pictures" she says placing the plates on the table.
" I will load up my website" I say blushing. Joe sits down next to me and zoe and alfie sit opposite us. I show zoe the pictures I took in new York a few months ago.
" OMG , they are beautiful, what are you like at filming" she says cutting up her chicken.
" I'm ok , I did photography and filming at collage and got a A* in both of them" I say wiping a bit off fold from the corner of my mouth.
" well , the boys are going to do a water sports day tommorow and it would be a big favour if you could help me film my autumn look book " she says opening her laptop and turning it on.
" I would love to" I say cutting up my chicken
" so how you finding England" alfie says taking a sip of his drink.
" it's really nice , everyone seems so nice" I say smiling at joe.
" you'll get used to it in time" he says smiling at zoe.
" I hope so " I say smiling at joe.

A few hours later
We all sat down on the sofa and watched I'm a celebrity get me out of here.
" jesus Christ there actually making people eat bugs" I say starting to gag. Zoe, alfie and joe all start laughing.
" yeah they do it every year " Joe says giving me a hug.
Once I'm a celebrity had finished we all went up to bed.
" he you go guys , make yourself at home " zoe says showing us her spar bedroom.
" Thankyou " I say giving zoe and alfie both a hug.
" night guys" zoe and alfie both say closing the door behind them.
" so what do you think" Joe says taking of his jeans and top getting in to bed.
" there lovely " I say chucking on my checkered shorts and my grey t-shirt.
" night my little pumpkin " Joe says kissing me on the lips.
"Night " I reply plugging my phone charger in the wall.
Joe goes to sleep within a minute, typical I sit up and check my phone for any messages. I have 3 messages
Millie: hey xxxx
Millie: answer me xxxx
Me: sorry mils I left my phone in my bag xxxx
I look at the next text message and its from mum
Mum: im sorry, call me when you can love you xxxx
I read it but don't answer it. I can't deal with having another argument with my mum. I look on twitter and see the picture that zoe had posted of me and her. I then go onto my account and see that I have over a million follows and about 500 tweets I start to read the tweets and should have stopped on the first one.
Your to ugly for joe
Leave joe alone he probably doesn't love you
Ugly whore
Slag
The tweets carry on coming through, I go in to the bathroom so I don't wake up joe. I cry as I look in to the mirror. I go to grab my razor blade from my bag. I hold it In my hand and think about the last time I cut myself. It was when dad was hitting mum before they got divorced. I put it to wrist and slowly start to cut my skin I go to do another cut but joe comes in and stops me. I turn around and cry I his arms the blood goes onto his back.
" I read the tweets" he says in his small husky voice " ignore them I love you and that's all that matters " he says kissing my forehead. " I have seen more tweets that say how much they love you than ones that are hating" he says wiping my arm.
" I love you" I say kissing his cheek
" I love you to" he says holding my hand taking me back to bed.