I'm just now realizing that my original plan is failing
I was supposed to be soaring in this sea of joy
But I'm not cause I'm just sailing
Just barely floating in this sea of misery
It's no mystery
I treated my heart like a toy
Playing make pretend
Trying to pretend that I wasn't hurting
Saying its just harmless flirting
But now in my jar that I created
I'm spilling all my lies as if we were mated
Then I pause
Waiting for my applause
My acting was spectacular
My plan was full proof
I mean I could've been tackier
But I'd already blown off the roof
But when the curtains closed
I fell out of character
Because I had realized
My original plan was failing
And my tears were trailing
My walls had been breached my jar was within your reach
You grabbed me but not all that gently
Then dropped the glass as if to shatter me
The cuts missed me so narrowly
That now I can see
Make since
Probably not cause its not like cents
You can't count the shards and understand me
You broke my amour
But am I still to amor?
You whisper sweet nothings to calm me
And for some strange reason it's calming
Its funny I've been in line for so long
Waiting for loves call that imitations grew strong
Crushing and believing for so long I'd forgotten loves voice
So now that I could be close I'm stuck with this choice
Believe or be deceived
In what has eluded me
Because now that I have my jar fixed
I don't have to see
What's ahead of me?
I'm protected in these walls that I call my best friend
But my walls don't talk back
So I pray that this don't end
Please don't cause me to backtrack
I'm scared yes
But not all that distressed
I trust you
So I'm taking a step out of this jar
Recreating my plan
Just don't shatter me
