Heart of fire ~ Andley

~Chapter 1~

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I swayed drunkenly over to the sofa and fell down on it, laughing as I did. "Ash!" Jinxx whined to me," You're so annoying!" "No," I argued," I am fun." We were all drunk after an awesome show, and we all stood in the tour bus, drinking. I flicked my long black hair back and looked up at Andy. He was leaning on the bench, a bottle of Jack Daniels in hand as his eyes darted around. They landed on me and he grinned. God he was so attractive, with his icy eyes, short, raven hair and a slim, tall build. No one knew I was gay, absolutely no one, except the very few one night stands, but they never knew who I was. I couldn't let anyone find out, because I'm a ladies man. A famous one at that. I can't be gay. But in my drunken state, I couldn't control the man I was. "We're going to the bar!" CC yelled," You two coming?" Andy was about to reply but I cut him off," We'll be there soon." He looked at me curiously as they all left but I guess he didn't care, being drunk and all. I walked up to him until our chest's were pressed together and I purred into his ear," Looking hot Andy." "Why thank you Mr Purdy," he giggled, his breath smelling sweet of alcohol and cigarettes, but minty as well. I went in to kiss him but he turned his head. "Ash," he whispered. "Oh come on, you know I can't resist those lips," I growled and he turned to look at me, our eyes locking. I took this time to kiss him, roughly grabbing his shirt and shoving him against bench. He groaned and I easily lifted his light frame, wrapping his legs around my hips as I carried him to the bunks. Music was still blaring but I didn't care. I threw him on my bunk and climbed on top, kissing him hard as I situated myself between his skinny legs. I kissed him harder, holding his hips tightly. "Ash," he gasped, turning his head side-ways. "Shh," I hissed, bringing his face back to mine. / I kissed him again. I have wanted to kiss this boy for over two years now, and now I really was. I smiled to myself as I yanked his ripped skinny jeans down...............

(Andy's POV)

I groaned as my eyes opened, my head banging a little bit. I felt warm, and then I felt arms draped over my waist. Against my skin. I'm naked............... Shit! I carefully turned over and gasped when I saw Ashley. My band member. My best friend. I have had a huge crush on this guy for years and now I had slept with him! NO! I didn't want this! I may have been drunk, but I tried to say no. I didn't want a stupid one night stand I wanted love! I can't believe I've been so stupid. I always fu*ck everything up because I'm a selfish ass*hole. I threw myself out the bed, ran into the bathroom and locked myself in with my beloved blades......................

I stood backstage of our next venue and jumped up and down, warming up. I casually wore a pair of ripped jeans, a ripped tank top and my leather jacket, my microphone in hand. It was hot but I had to cover my arms. No one could know. "Andy you'll be boiling in that," Jake warned," Take it off." "I'm fine," I lied. "Come on man," he teased, pulling at the collar. "I said no!" I yelled, shoving him away. He looked hurt, confused, but turned around. I leant on the wall and took a deep breath. / Andy, you are a selfish, ignorant person. You slept with your best friend, you hurt your friend, you should die. Cut your wrists and bleed out. Don't eat. Throw up every meal. "Black veil brides you're up," the back stage manager told us and I ran on, forcing a smile. "How you crazy motherfucker's doing tonight?" I growled, the crowd screaming at us," This first song is Rebel Love Song!" The music started and I sang, trying to be good for our fans but I couldn't. Just as the chorus started I spun round and caught eyes with Ashley. He looked up and his eyes widened, probably with hate............... I grabbed the mic stand and took a deep breath. "I-I can't do this," I cried," I-I'm sorry." I looked up through teary eyes at the heart-broken crowd and ran off stage as fast as I could. I threw the mic to the floor and kept running to the tour bus. When I got their I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in, sliding down against the door. I cried hard, sobbing hysterically into my hands. My friends hate me. I ruined the show! I slept with Ashley! The boy I love and he hates me! That caused me to cry even harder. I heard a loud bang on the door and CC yelled," Andy!" "Andy what's wrong!" Jake yelled through the door. "Andy you've never done this before," Jinxx spoke. "Go away!" I cried. "Andy open the door!" Ashley yelled and his voice made it hurt. Make it stop! Make it stop! I fumbled around for my razor blade in the back cupboard and exposed my wrist and thighs, cutting away at them. I cried out from the mental and physical pain, almost screaming. "ANDY OPEN THE FU*CKING DOOR!" Jake screamed at me, pounding on it. "Leave me alone!" I stammered in between sobs. I sniffled, trying to calm my cries. I quickly washed the blood away, wrapping bandage tightly around it before throwing my coat back on. I didn't realise I had been in here half an hour. I slowly opened the door and lightly walked to the living room. Ugh I hated all this fat on my body it's disgusting. / I poked my head around the door frame and saw them all sitting there, talking amongst themselves. "He's never done this before, what's wrong?" CC asked. "Something's different," Jake replied," He's not been the same." "He's so skinny," Jinxx lied, I knew it," Too skinny, and so sad." "What do we do?" Ashley asked. "We help," Jake nodded," We have to." I saw CC nudge Jake and they all turned round to look at me. Ashley stood up and crossed the room to me. "You've been crying so much," he whispered," Come here," he reached his arms forward but I shoved him away, stumbled back and fell straight over, hitting my head on the side of the door frame. "Sh*it!" I heard one of they guy's gasp and they all got up, running over. "Stay away from me!" I cried, crawling backwards quickly. "Andy?" Ashley asked me softly. "S-stop," I sobbed and ran to my bunk, falling onto it, closing the curtain and crying myself to sleep.