Crimson blood. (1D fanfiction)

*******This is a new story that I (Courtney) am going to be writing by myself. I am sorry if you don't like it but just know that this is not Cameron's writing. It is mine so please DO NOT give Cameron hate. The hate would belong to me. ********

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Today may be a new day but the same problems haunt me.

It is a never ending nightmare.

I get up and walk to my bathroom and look at the monster in the mirror, the "person" known as Kaylin Ash West.

I have long curly (dyed black) hair that i straighten every day. I have a dark blue streak in my long bangs and my hair falls right below my chest.

I am fattest and I am the ugliest person to walk the earth. I stare at my reflection. I see all of the bruises and scars and the new burn. The one that shocks me the most. The one that I can't get over. i have the sudden urge to get anything and everything out of my stomach. I turn the shower on so that my brother won't here me. He hates when I do this but it helps.

I am the fat, ugly, nerd at school, An automatic target for bullies. So basically everyone is either tripping me or throwing me into lockers or onto the floor, beating the crap out of me.

Like I don't already get enough of that at home?...

I have had to live through this ever sense my mother left us and my father became an abusive alcoholic. My brother Kody is the only one who cares about me and the only reason why I haven't ended my life yet. He knows about my cutting but I can't stop.

I strip My clothes off and step into the cold shower. I find that cold showers help me calm down more than hot ones . As the cold water runs over my pale skin, I think about how to avoid the crowds. I grab my razor and swiftly move it across my right thigh, leaving a new addition. How do i not draw attention to myself today in lessons? I think I know how to end this nightmare. I get out of the shower and head over to my towel and dry off.

I walk to my closet and pull out my black skinny jeans. I put on my black and blue, off the shoulder sweater. I get out my favorite pair of black combat boots and put them on over my jeans, and put in my black lip ring. I head over to my makeup (that I never where) and decided that from now on, I am going to change. I'm not going to be the fat, ugly, nerd that everyone makes fun of. I am going to change.

I put on my colored green contacts (instead of my glasses), very thick eyeliner and a thick layer of mascara.

I picked up my bag and walked over to my brothers room.

"Ready Kody?" He looked up and smiled.

"Well, well, well! Someone was half asleep when they put their makeup on this morning!" He laughed.

"Oh shut it kody and get your fat ass in the truck and take me to hell already!" I yelled on my way down to his truck.

My father was still passed out on the couch from last night. He came home drunk (like usual) and beat me (also like usual) but this time, he did something he has never done before. Kody wasn't Home at the time so I'm not going to tell him. He doesn't need to get hurt again.

While I was sitting in the truck, I was listening to the radio and herd that there was going to be a surprise 1D signing today at around 2:00 p.m. Great! I can skip class! There shouldn't be many people there because of school and because it's a surprise one so I should be in and out fast. I felt a bit happier but that would all change when I get dropped of at the corner of hell.

A.K.A- school.

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Well... Hope you like it! Please comment what you want to happen or what should changed or anything you want! Haha.

Hope to update soon.

Goodnight my loves <3

~Courtney xxxx