All We Are

Fustrations*

   (Picture Of Marzia Above)
Warning For This Chapter*
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I woke up feeling numb and empty at the same time. I reached on my nightstand for my phone and holding the power button. I had to cut it off because Ethan was calling and texting back to back.

I don't understand why he was calling, it was his fault I'm in this situation.

As the messages rolled in making one ding after another my phone rang. It was Ethan. Again. Without thinking I swiped my screen right.

"-AT HAPPENED WITH YOU AND GRAYSON!?" He shouted before the call got fully connected.

  "Don't act stupid." I snarled.

"What?" He asked his voice full of confusion. I could here people in the distance of his background laughing and yelling. He was at school.

"You told Grayson about Joseph and I. In return he got upset, ignored me for the whole day." I got out of the bed pressing the speaker button. "So after class he was with you and you guys were talking probably about me." I tied my blonde hair into a messy bun. "Then he was all over some girl." I picked up my phone bringing it with me to the bathroom. "I got jelly kissed Joseph, he walked away." I sped through that part.

"In front of his fa-"

I cut Ethan off before he could continue, "so then dragged me to the old stair well.." I blushed at the memory. "And he basically said he wanted nothing to do with me, but at the same time he wanted me." I summarized cutting on the shower allowing the steam to fill the room. "Then you know things got heated." I bit my lip.

"How heated?" He questioned making sure his little brother didn't do anything stupid.

"Uhh.. Well.." I sighed with a nervous laugh on the end.

"Listening......."

"Nothing went inside nothing Eth!" I emphasized. "But there was touching and feeling." I sat on the counter squeezing my legs together at the memory.

The bathroom was full of steam so I wrapped up my conversation with Ethan and basically told him I'll give him the cold tea at school. He got annoyed and rushed me to get there.

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           "... and then he just licked his fingers and left." I explained to Ethan while we were waiting for the bell for our first class to ring.

     He mouth was ajar, "That's just cruel.." He let out. "Why am I even listening to this? Thats my fucking brother." He held his stomach pretending to throw up.

            "Tell me about it" I laughed nervously "I'm so frustrated." I squeezed my legs shut under the picnic table. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, it was so frustrating. I couldn't focus.

           "You know I didn't tell him about Joseph right." He looked down at his phone then looked back up.

           "What do you mean?" I narrowed my eyes. "Why was he mad if you didn't tell him?"

            "I just told him about you trust issues, he really doesn't want to hurt you." He explained "The way Gray is built it's like this, he doesn't know how to show he cares.. Basically not the romantic type. He gets so frustrated to the point where he just shuts everyone out. But eventually he springs back up." He put on his black shades to block out the sun "You fucked up when you kissed ya little friend in front of him." He shook his head.