There is a moment of bliss a moment of true and pure faith ,and that moment is right when I wake up and there is nothing to be heard I don't remember anything, now that only lasts for a second its not long enough to keep me happy and it surely is no...
"Kasey!" My grandmother called my name is quickly shuffled downstairs. " I want to talk to you about moving in the guest house because I need this part of the house to my self for reasons. And don't worry August is going to move over in that area as well. You can come to the house if you need anything specific but I just need you guys out of this part for a little while ." I only nodded my head feeling unwanted and unloved slowly walking away not wanting to argue I began crying heading upstairs. Starting to pack I think about this like why would she want me out yes it's still a part of the house but it's not exactly in the house it feels like only phase one of her kicking me out all together if she didn't want me here then why would she accept me when the officer brought me here. I heard the door open behind me I didn't look up only continuing to pack my clothes that I had out which wasn't much because I still hadn't built my wardrobe up all the way.
"Hey she told me." August says grabbing my arm and trying to be comforting but his touch is unwelcomed right now I can't forget that he left me yesterday with strangers. " Why you pulling away from me I'm trying to see how you doing." I only looked at him for a moment before closing my bag and heading towards the door. Of course he wouldn't let me out ,"So you don't hear me talking to you?" I shook my head trying to push forward and he still doesn't budge. "August move out my way now!" He only held me back not wanting to amend to my request. "Are you going to tell me what's up and why you not talking to me?" I nodded only wanting to ease the process because over this short time of knowing him I've learned that our stubbornness doesn't mix. He unleashed me from his hold and guided me to my black bean bag chair where he sat down and guided me on his lap. "Talk to me." I had to calm my self down a bit because his hands makes my nerves go to the ceiling. " where did you go yesterday it was a unfamiliar setting and you just left me." I spilled my feeling about his actions keeping my head down the whole time. The hurt and pain that I have experienced in this year,these last 4 months even has changed me I used to be so sure of myself and so confident but I just don't know who I am anymore. "I had to handle business and I felt like you would be good in sorry that was bad judgment on my part I should have asked you how you felt." He apologizes placing his finger under my chin making me look directly at him and breath his words. I only nodded showing him my forgiveness and headed towards the door. I followed the stone path towards the guest house taking the key from under the little mat ready to call it a night even if it wasn't night time.
I laid down in the first room that I came across passing the bed near the dining area. August can have that open space I need a door. I didn't want to sleep though because I know what thoughts come with my eyes being closed and what night mares come with my slumber. I cried silently just in case August came in the guest house I could tell the walls were thin and this was a small space so I had to be careful.
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I heard my door being opened so I quickly wiped my eyes pretending to be sleep and just like that the door was shut again. I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding in the tears falling again until I cried myself to sleep.
