apparition ; hs au

one

I stared at the blank sheet of paper stolidly as my notebook lies on my thigh. I can't think of a thing to write. I bit my pen and focused on what am i writing. I let my thoughts fly the entire time.

Dear to whoever will read this.

I grunt as I erased the stupid words that came out of my mind. I ran a hand through my hair, trying to focus once again.

Dear mom,

I don't know what came into your mind that you gave me this little diary. You know, i suck at writing my thoughts down or too lazy writing whatever happened this day. But nevermind i still love you and will never stop loving you.

I sighed at the single paragraph that I made. Writing is not bad at all.

For the next month I'll be going to college ! I know it's exciting but I still feel nervous. Am I supposed to be friendly? I don't want to be bullied and i don't want to be a "cool kid" either. So today, im packing my bags because im moving into our rest house!

I bit my lip as I lose my temper and shut the notebook.

"Ann are you set?" My mum shouts from downstairs, her voice echoing throughout the halls of our static house.

"Not yet, I am still packing my toiletries!" I shouted back. I am actually done packing things but I just wanted to let my thoughts fly for this day. I watched the sunlight as it entered through the crystal clear glass of the window, the radiant beams and iridescent light coming from the sun is so pleasing to the eye.

I will miss this place.

I laid once again in my bed from where I sit, my bedsheets lies unruly. I looked at the ceiling fan, listening to each whirring sound that it makes. I buried my face in my palms, until the door bursts open.

"God Ann, you procrastinate too much!" My mum says quickly as she grabs the huge bag, and stood in front of me. "Are you going to follow me or are you going to lay down there for the rest of the day?" she asks briskly.

I stood up from the bed, smoothing out my blouse. Instead of following my mother, I just walked in front of the window, staring at the beautiful scenery that we have out there. My mother stopped at the doorframe, leaning against it.

"I'm going to miss this place." I say, twiddling my thumbs anxiously. My mother half smiles, making her way towards me.

"It won't be so long." She pulls me into a hug, burying her face on my shoulder. I immediately hugged back. "Don't move a single thing in my room, even a dust please." I pointed out, whispering in her ear. My mother giggles, tapping my back lightly.

"Please make some friends dear." She says, pulling off from our warm hug, and putting her hands on my shoulder.

I sigh. "I'll try my best."

She smiles. "Good, let's go." Lily walks out of the room, soon I followed. Within one last glance, I looked at my colourful room which is full of things about stars and planets. I smiled briefly and walked straight into the garage to find mum who is already seating on the driver's seat.

I opened the door and get into the passenger's seat. I am so excited to see a new view. I am moving to our old house located at the end of California. It is nice because I'm going to be a college student within a month anyways, and it was few blocks away from school so i think it would be fun. I know it's kind of weird living in a house, all by yourself at the age of eighteen but I never wanted to be in a dormitory because I have trust issues, and I wanted a better view. I don't want to take an apartment either because I don't want to have neighbours. I am an anti social pessimist. I loved being alone.