Gods and Monsters (BxB)

Chapter Thirty-Four

~Regan~
It was back to school today, I was dreading it so much because somehow Indie had convinced me into giving everyone a second chance. He told me that everyone deserved a second chance and that now I didn't have to feel bad because I had him and he wouldn't let anyone make me feel any type of way.
I had to say that he was very convincing if not anything else.  I often found myself questioning the things that I would do for him; I guess that meant that I really did... I'm not going to say it. If I say that word then that means it's true. So I won't because it isn't. I don't lo—
"Hey!" a voice way too cheerful for the morning boomed as I walked into the kitchen. I looked at my mom with a very confused expression on my face. She was making pancakes and I wanted to know why. You need to understand something about Karen, although she's a famous chef, she wasn't the type to get up early and make anybody's breakfast. There were only two reasons why she would do that, either it was my birthday—which it wasn't—or she had a...
"Oh curse the gods, are you kidding me mom, with my teacher, you're absolutely the worst." I chastised her because I knew any minute now some guy was going to come down here half naked and...oh my god that's my teacher again. My thoughts shifted direction as Richard—or as he's better known at school: Mr. Pettygod—came around the corner into the kitchen, half naked and looking...really good.
He was too young for my mom and if he wasn't straight I'd think about, "curse the seven gods of seven different religions, I have to get the hell out of here." I said cutting my thoughts off. He just smiled at me and watched me walk out of the kitchen. I almost thought about me and my mom's new boy toy doing the unspeakable. I came to the conclusion that I was slowly going insane.
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To say that Pettygod's class was awkward was an understatement. He gave me weird looks the whole time and the only thing I could think about when he looked at me was how he was bonking my mom. I shuttered at that thought and then chided myself for using the word bonking. I hadn't seen Indie yet so I was looking forward to telling him about my weird ass day at lunch.
As soon as I got to my spot under the tree in the quad I saw him—not Indie, it was Avery and he was just standing there under my tree with Jordyn. What the fuck did they think this was, why were they bothering me, I just wanted to eat lunch with my boyfriend...wow that felt weird. I never thought about calling Indie that and it just came out all of a sudden.
Anyway, I turned around and made my way back into the lunchroom, if they were going to be in my spot then it wasn't my spot anymore. As soon as I made it to the door I felt a slender hand curl around my arm, It was Jordyn and she wore a look that held so much contrition I almost forgave her right there on the spot.
I mean, Jordyn didn't really do anything, in fact she was the one that stayed with me after the whole incident and although she stayed friends with them she never really bothered me or gave me dirty looks. I knew all of this but I still managed to make a face and snatch my arm away from her when I saw Avery coming up behind her. It made me completely angry again and I wanted nothing more than to spit in his nostril or something.
"What do you want?" I asked with a venomous tone. Jordyn looked taken aback and Avery flinched but didn't move away or anything. All he did was stare at me and it was only after Jordyn started speaking that he looked away.
"Regan, I know you don't want to hear this but Avery really wants to talk to you, I think you should hear him out and although it doesn't have anything to do with me I still think you should give him a chance. Please." She said, I looked at her a cocked and eyebrow. What could Avery have to say to me that he didn't already say? I looked at him for a second before I said anything.
"what do you want to tell me Avery? How much of a slut I am?" Jordyn eyes widened and she snapped her head to look at Avery who flinched at the word as if it were fire. "Or do you want to tell me how stupid I am or how naïve I was to think that you could actually like me? Maybe you wanted to go get your whole crew so that you can all laugh at the boy how fell in love with an asshole." He looked broken at that last part and I knew my words were harsh but I wanted to lay everything on the table so I could be done with this once and for all.
"Do you know that I don't have friends? Did you know that when you guys came into my life I was so happy because it was the first time people showed any interest in me? I bet you didn't know that you were the first person to ever make me feel like I was someone who could be loved. I just wished you had handled it differently Avery. You didn't have to take all of that away from me; you could've ended it if you knew you didn't love me. That would've been enough for me."
I realized that I was in tears by the end of that and I dropped my lunch to the floor so that I could wipe my eyes. I kept my head down because I was so embarrassed by this. It was humiliating and I just wanted to be swallowed up by the floor.
I stiffened when I felt his arms engulf me and a familiar cologne waft past my nose. He was hugging me, he was hugging me and I was letting him do it. Why wasn't I shoving him off me or something, this wasn't supposed to be happening. Then I felt him shudder, then I heard him—he was crying. I relaxed in his arms but I was still conflicted, why was he crying.
"I love you." he said it and my eyes widened. Did he just— "I love you and still do Regan. I'm sorry, I never wanted to hurt you but I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid and I thought that I knew the right thing to do but I didn't because I know I still love you. It tore me up inside to see what I saw the other day and I'm sure you know by now that I say stupid and hurtful things when I'm confronted with difficult things." He was sobbing and I looked around to see that all eyes were on us. Everyone was watching to see what my next move would be and I knew I was going to regret it but I slid my arms around his torso and held him close to me.
It felt so good. This is all I wanted ever since he first kissed me. Avery meant so much to me and it took him such a short period of time to mean that much. Then I thought about how much shorter it took for him to destroy everything. It made me hate him, it made me hate myself for not being able to truly hate him because even now as I had my arms wrapped around him and he was crying I could only think of how much I loved him.
"I'm sorry, Rey." He whispered into my ear. I believed him, I knew he was sorry but I didn't want to just forgive him. It was getting harder and harder to keep my resolve though. When I felt a hand on my back I whirled around and saw Indie standing there. My eyes widened and I opened my mouth to say something but I stopped when he lifted his finger to my lips and shushed me.
"It's okay, this is what we talked about remember?" he said and I remembered the talk we had the day that Avery came and saw us together.
"What do you want to talk about?" I said nervously. I felt like he was going to break up with me right after we just had sex and that was going to kill me because it would be the second time it happened... not that me and Avery had sex.
"About you and your friends." Indie answered after a while. I scoffed and folded my hands over my bare chest and glared at him.
"They are not my friends, and I don't like you calling them that or even bringing them up for that matter." I snapped. He flinched and I felt a bit guilty about it.
"Regan, I'm not trying to get in your business but what happened with that monster the other day seemed like it could've been avoided if you all worked better together. What if something like that happens again and no one jumps in to save you. I don't want to lose you like that and if you being on better terms with the rest of "those people" can help you out then that would make me feel better." He told me. I blinked a few times before rolling my eyes.
"I can take care of myself Indie. What he did to me... what they did do me is unforgivable and I'd rather—"
"Everyone deserves a second chance Regan. Do you know where I'd be without second chances?" he asked, I saw something flicker in his eyes but It was gone as soon as it was there and he didn't elaborate on his statement. It peeked my curiosity but I left it alone, he would've shared if he wanted to.
I sat there and let his words echo in my ears; it wasn't like I haven't ever thought about it. I would think that maybe we could all go back to normal but then I would remember the thing that transpired and it would relight my flame of hatred. The worst part of it is that I sometimes found myself not caring that everything happened, I just really wanted to be back to hanging out with them... with Avery.
"I don't want to." I told him, I saw him roll his eyes and it made me smile.
"Oh my god, you're so stubborn. I need you to get your act together." He teased, I got up and sat on his lap, snuggling up to his neck and kissing him there. "Stop trying to be cute so that we won't talk about this." He continued sternly. I mentally slapped him for seeing through my scheme but I decided against actually doing it. I sighed and gave up, it wasn't something that I wanted to do but I also wasn't something that I DIDN'T want to do. "Does it really mean that much to you?" I asked him, if I was going to do this then I wanted to make sure that it was absolutely necessary.
"It does, I can't stand the thought of you getting hurt out there. It's bad enough that I have to act like all this Gods and Monsters crap is normal but I won't have you torn away from me so soon." He told me. I smiled at him and then leaned in for a kiss. His lips met mine and the kiss quickly turned passionate. I really did like Indie a lot and I wanted to spend a lot more time with him, so if that meant swallowing my pride and doing this to make him happy then I would do it.
I opened my mouth to say something but I was interrupted by someone at the door. "I'll get it." Indie told me. He got up and left the kitchen before I realized he was naked. That stupid boy is not going to answer my door butt ass naked.
I laughed at the thought of him answering my door naked and then I remembered who was on the other side of that door and I turned around to look at Avery again. I looked into his chocolate brown eyes and smiled at him.
"Avery, you hurt me and I don't think that I'm ever going to forget that." I saw his eyes sadden as I told him that, "But I also know that I really do care about you and as dumb as it may be I want to at least be amicable with you, so can we try to go back to what we had before, before all of this gods and monsters crap. I want us to just be Avery Charmicheal and Regan Fowley, two people who don't know each other but are well on their way to." I finished with a smile.
Somewhere in my statement his eyes went from sad to hopeful, he was hopeful that we could be friends again and I had to admit that so was I. I was hopeful that I could be friends with Avery, just friends.
That point was made prominent by the arrival of none other than the queen himself. Niko started to walk towards us and he hitched himself onto Avery's hip when he made it. I watched as Niko tilted Avery's head down so that they could kiss and I felt my stomach do a loop-de-loop.
Indie put his arms around me from behind and I felt better. This was right, it was the best thing for us and I only hoped that we could keep it up