Cube One shots

Not a oneshot

I haven't need writing for the fact of lack of motivation and well my anxiety schools so much some times.. Any ways I was wondering what you thought of this little message I know it might not be the the best but whatever I'll try to put more one-shot out there give me some time I get inspiration at the most random of times.

If I could remember the days were I used to be someone. The one who laughed, and made others laugh. Now I cry everyday hoping to remember those days when I didn't force a smile, that it was real. Bright clothes turned into dark clothes. Empty plates now full of food, stomach use to feel like they were going to burst now it's starvation it feels. What could lead to this?well the answer is the demons you wished away when you were little now they can't be wished away. No will power or wishing makes them go away . But I guess I aloud them to stay, they made me feel accepted like I belong. Oh did that not last very long once I felt like someone I was torn to the ground. Everything I once held just vanished. I lost the one thing I was born to find.....it was myself. Now I hid with the demons but some days I hide away from the demons. They took all of me and now I'm left to fight the cruel world alone. I use to think I could be saved but who am I kidding that's not going to happen I lived to long with the demons. They them self gained enough strength to become more than a voice now they had a flesh skin and bones to project that voice with. I don't stand a chance maybe that's why I lye here on the ground watching the world fade....the pills settle at the pit of my stomach. Now it's over the demons won but they didn't take one thing and that was you. The one who tried so hard to fight for me. It's over I lost and maybe so did you. But don't cry you fought very well I just didn't fight at all. Now in this moment peace I am at last the light that leaves me is finally going to beat the demons. You survive for the both of us they'll come after you too. Here I vow to you that I give you something I couldn't give myself. Think of it when you are at wits end. I'm sorry it's over for me and my little broken mind. Take care see you when it's time to no sooner please. With all that I have left and what the demons could never take my love for you. Who ever you are at this moment who fought the demons with me know that I loved you more than myself maybe not like a lover but it's the thought that counts, right? Goodbye dear one for the demons are coming and the last of the magic is finally talking over me. I'll see you when the light shines brighter than the sun. Till then tell the demons they can't have the rest of me nor will they have you. Take care young fighter for now you have a much harder battle just you on your own. This is it I'm gone ,be happy for I wasn't ,live for I have not ,be free for I was trapped, don't let me die in vain, night.