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The Words (requested)- Nick Bean

Kelly's POV
Song(optional): Breathe Me- Sia
I grab a razor and throw it on the floor and smash it with my foot so it breaks. I pick it up and got the blades out carelessly and threw the rest of the razor away.
I sit back down.
I stare at my wrists and then the blades.
Taking a deep breath, I slowly press a blade against my skin and slash it to the other end of my wrist.
Once I do so, I see blood starting to ooze out of the cut.
Well fuck, to be honest with you, that hurt.
Nick Bean cheated on me. Remember that. He made out with that stupid blonde in his car as I walked by. Come on, Kelly! Suck it up!
"I hate you Nicholas David Bean!" I say between cuts.

Days earlier, my good friend and Nick's best friend, Zach, kissed me, after confessing his love for me. I hadn't kissed back, but Nick had walked in at the exact time that he kissed me. Things have been different since then. And of course, he had to make things worse between us, so one day, I walked by after school to see Nick making out with a girl in a car.

  I damp a wet paper towel with water and clean the blood that is dripping. I put my wrist under the faucet and rinse my wrist off. I've done this before, and I'll never really get used to it.

I might as well take a shower, so I do. After I do so, I slip bandages onto my left wrist when I'm out.

I check the time and it's barely 5. I pull my curtains down in my room so it can be dark. My mom is out on a business trip, so I have the house to myself for the next few weeks.

I grab my phone and put my camera on flash. I take a picture of my bandaged wrist and, being the stupid girl I am, I send it to Nick. Yes, I still have his number, I didn't delete it but I haven't texted him since we broke up.

Me: See what you did to me? I hope you're happy.

*******

I was awaken from my slumber when I hear knocking downstairs. Dang, whoever that is really wants to get in.

I get up and rub my eyes. I feel my arm throbbing and I remember what I'd done.

Well dayum.

I slide into a hoodie so the bandages aren't noticeable and walk downstairs to open the door.

Once I open it, I see a pissed off Nick. Oh.. I attempt to slam the door but he slides through before it can shut. I walk away and he grabs my bad wrist. I groan and bite my lip hard to keep from crying. He must have noticed, because he lets go almost at the same moment he grabs my arm. He grabs my hand and pulls up my sleeve. Oh god....
"What the hell were you thinking, Kelly?! There are better ways to make yourself feel better than c-cutting yourself! God why...?" Nick stammers with his eyes ready to let his forming tears spill.

"I-I saw you... With another- a g-girl, kissing" I choke, my throat closing in making it hard not to let tears spill out of my eyes. He walks toward me and pulls me into his chest for a long hug. God, I've missed this so much- the warmth of his arms. He makes me feel so safe. I miss him so much, all I can do is cry, sobbing and just hug him back. Hugging him like my life depended on it. "Let me see it," he almost whispers after a while of us just standing there, hugging.
"No" I reply. He can't see them, showing him the bandages was already bad enough. It'll hurt him even more. He grabs my hands, eventually letting go of my right hand.

Song (Optional): Wanted- Hunter Hayes

He pulls up the sleeve of my left arm, he slowly pulls off the bandages one by one, maintaining eye contact. He slowly lets his eyes travel down my arm, to see my bloody wrist. I look at him only to see the hurt and sadness in his eyes once he sees my wrist.

He grabs my hand and slowly drags me behind him up the stairs into the bathroom.
"I'm sorry...." I mumble, letting my head fall so all I can see is our feet.
"Don't be." He turns on the faucet and puts my
arm in the warm water. Once my wrist was clean, he dries it off with a towel and we walk next door to my room.

"Kelly." Nick says weakly once we are sitting on my bed.
"Yes?"
"Don't ever do this again. Please." I just shrug and look at my dangling feet.
He pulls my head up from my chin, using his thumb and pointing finger. I stare into his piercing green eyes. His pupils are huge, is that normal?

"I know it's hard not being together. It's hard being without you, too. I mean I knew Zach had liked you since the beginning, I jut didn't know he still does. It's not your fault he kissed you, and I shouldn't have broken up with you. You always made my day and without you, I just can't. I can't do it without you. When I received the text message from you, I was mad. Mad at myself for hurting you like that. I hurt you, the girl I love. I don't deserve you at all. You were the one and I just threw you away because my best friend kissed you. I didn't even believe you when you said you didn't kiss back. I knew you didn't, I really truly did. I'm so sorry, babe."

He bends his head down and slowly leaves kisses on my left wrist. His soft lips leave a tingly sensation at every spot he kissed. He looks back up to look me in the eyes.

That's when I knew. That's when I knew he meant every word he had just said. I can see it in his beautiful eyes. He is truly sorry and hurt for what he had done.

I open my mouth to say the words. The same words I have been wanting to tell him since we broke up. It's actually funny because he decides to say the exact same words at the same time. The words that I love hearing from him. The words he loves hearing from me.

We both said it. At the exact same time, perfectly in sync.

"I love you so much."

.......How ironic?

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