Why can't I be loved??(H.S)

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"Maddie!!" I heard my bestfriend,Chelsea call for me.

I sighed and rolled my eyes at my best friend and divert my focus once again at my geometry book.

"Maddie! I've been calling for you a thousand times already." Chelsea said while plonking herself on the bench in front of me.

"I'm busy Chels, whats so important that you have to scream my name in front of hundreds of students in this school?"I asked her as I put down my book on the table.

"Well I have news for you." She said as she pulled out two pieces of papers from her backpack and waved them in front of me.

"What's this?" I asked her.

"Just shut up and read it!" She told me.

I unfolded the paper and began reading it.

"Chels what's this?" I asked her.

"Duh! Its an audition form for the play this coming fall."

"Are you nuts? I'm not gonna audition for the role.You know that this is not my thing" I told her as I folded the paper and placed it in front of her.

"Come on Mads! I know you'll get the part. Please at least think about it." She pleaded.

"I dunno Chels..." I told her. She pouted and put on her best puppy eyes at me.

"Fine!" I groaned.

"Yes! She stood up and do a little dance.

"Chels! Stop it! Sit down. People are staring." I told her and grabbed her hand and forced her to sit down on her seat.

"I don't care. Now open the other one!" She told me. I obliged and opened it, I realized that it was a formal letter since it was placed inside a white envelope and noticed the logo. I immediately opened the letter.

Dear Ms. Richards:

We are pleased to inform that you have been chosen as one of the students to join the school dance team. Please proceed at the dance studio this Friday and approach Ms. Cortez for further instructions. Again Congratulations!

Sincerely, Ms. Matthews

I stared at the letter I've been holding and reread the letter again. I can't believe it after how many years I've finally been accepted.

"Mads?"

I looked at Chelsea and saw her smirking at me. I smiled at her and hugged her tightly. She hugged back and rubbed my back.

"Thank you Chels!" I whispered.

"Don't thank me Mads, I know you can make it. You've always been a great dancer." She whispered back.

After hugging her for a few more minutes I finally released her and smiled at her.

"I got to go Chels! I have to tell Mom the good news." I told her as I held the paper tightly.

"Of course and don't forget to think about the audition." She said

"I will. Thanks again!" I said and hugged her one last time and ran towards the car.

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"Mom! I'm home!" I called as I enter the house.

"In the kitchen sweetheart." My mom replied.

I smiled and walked towards the kitchen. The moment I entered, I saw my Mom in front of the stove probably making dinner since its already 6 in the evening. I smiled and placed my bag on the counter and hugged her.

"Maddison you scared me." She exclaimed as she turned around.

"Sorry Mom. I have great news though." I said, smiling widely.

"What is it??" She asked me.

I didn't respond but instead pulled out the letter and gave it to her. She took it from me and read it. After a few minutes I was embraced once again into her arms and she repeatedly kissed the top of my head saying how proud she was of me.

"Congratulations baby! I know that you'll make it." She said once she released me from our hug.

"Thanks Mom."

"Danielle what's for dinner--" I heard the deep voice of my father enter the kitchen. I turned around and came face to face with those brown orbs.

"Am I interrupting something?" He asked, noticing that I was in the room.

"No--" I started

"Well actually since today is a special occassion.We're having pork chops tonight love." My mom replied as she took my father's coat.

"What's the occassion? I'm sure that its nobody's birthday." He said.

"You see Maddie here made it into their dance school team." Mom said as she walked beside me placed her hands on my shoulders.

"Is that so? Well congratulations Maddison and Just call me when dinner is ready alright love?" He replied and pecked mom on the lips and went upstairs probably to do his work.

Mom turned around and saw my expression.

"Sweetie?" She said sadly.

"I'm fine Mom." I replied.

"Maddie?" Worry filled her eyes.

"Mom, I'm fine really. I just remembered that I have to do my homework for chemistry." I said and grabbed my bag and headed upstairs to my room.

I threw my bag on the floor and plopped myself on my bed and cried into my pillow. I look at the letter on my hands.

Why would I ever think that he would care? Why am I not used to it already? Because whatever I do I know that he will never be proud of me.