One Shots!

City Lights

City Lights

I grasped my hot chocolate in both hands as I stared out the window of the mostly vacant cafe. My thoughts couldn't help but wander to him. Even though it has been a little over a year he still consumed my thoughts frequently. Even though I was the one who broke it off I still love him immensely. Just because I love him doesn't mean we should be together. All he did was make me feel useless. I know I shouldn't love someone who is only bad for me, but I can't help it. I can't just command my heart to stop loving him, that's not how it works. I take another sip of my hot chocolate which is growing cold quickly as I continued to look out as the bustling street as sheets of rain fell down, soaking the ground and the people who were unfortunate enough to not have an umbrella or rain coat. It amazes me that now a nearly midnight, the streets are still full of activity and people, shop lights still glowing brightly in the pitch black night making it appear much lighter. The tall buildings towered over the smaller ones intimidatingly. The loud car horns and screeching of tires seemed to be silenced by the night and the rain. Now, even though they still honked and screeched and people still chattered it seemed calmer, peaceful even. People hurriedly passed the cafe windows paying no mind to me, only in a race to get where they are going, their feet moving them along. They call out to others and laugh among friends, completely disregarding all the others doing the exact same. It's times like this where I enjoy watching the commotion from the stands, observing instead of being wrapped up in it all. We seem to have mastered the art of co-existing, bumping into people and not even looking up to apologize. As I come out of my daze of thoughts I notice the cafe is empty now and it's just me, sitting here, staring at the city lights.