Abandonment
They're gonna leave me. Everyone always does.
The bed
There's a bolt loose somewhere and I can't figure it out but something tells me if you get crushed by one hundred fifty pounds of metal and mattress from a few feet above you won't come out of it looking pretty.
Fire
If a fire happens there's no chance I'll get out of the room alive. Alyssa has to be the first priority, obviously, and there's too many things I own that I'd rather die amongst than leave.
Water
Drowning. I can't swim and I'd slip away and everyone would forget me until its too late. Just like..never mind. Here comes the panic attack.
My own mind
Will I last until tomorrow or will I finally snap? Maybe my masochistic desires will take over and I'll wake up in a bathtub of my own blood with a smile on my face. Because its pain, and I love pain.
Brian
He can't come back. There's no way. He tore my family apart like a hot knife cuts through butter. Alcohol. Drugs. I have scars I'll forever be ashamed to admit to their existence. Studded belts and hours of standing by the closet, memories I'll never escape. My mum doesn't want to deal with him so she makes me do the dirty work. I'm going to end up hurting either him, her, or myself.
