Riley p.o.v
Dear diary
I'm a liar, I lie every time I get up in the morning, when I say I'm OK, I lie when I say I'm happy for Maya whenever I'm around her. I lie Lucas when I tell him I don't want to be with him when I all want to do is kiss him, And Farke, he just knows me like a book and there's no lie I can tell him because he seen the side of me before. He says I'm treading on dangerous waters but I'm afraid I've already drowned in treacherous zones. I kept asked myself question that I didn't have the answers to, like
Why is life got to be so complicated? Why do emotions take over us and Our mind take a backseat and our heart always take the lead? And why does my heart beg for Lucas and my Mind beg to let him go, And those questions are dangerous in the mind of a teenager but all emotions are dangerous and some can lead you know desperate to spare. Dear diary I'm completely lost I've been thrown to the ground and I have no way of getting back up.Sincerely
yours truly
The broken
heart princessI have closed the pretty princess notebook, throwing it in my drawer. There was a knock on my bedroom door, I was too tired to answer it I was drained from all the emotional turmoil going to my head as there door opened up my mothers that there. " I heard you had a very eventful New year eve" She said she came and sat on my bed, " i kiss Charlie I don't even know why I do these things but I just want to forget about Lucas" I sighed as I played with the my SpongeBob pajama shorts, she nod her head. " The question is do you like to kiss?" She asked me to move the serious question it was sloppy but there was no feelings no sparks no nothing sloppy wet kiss that made me wish I never did it. " and everything just becoming very complicated very quick, I want Maya and right now she thinks it's with Lucas he makes her happy and he grabbed her face and that made her happy not even kiss just holding her face. " I stopped myself a spilling everything, there is a jealousy there, how can I be jealous of my best friend she step back for me so now it's my turn to step back. " hey sweetie how do know Luca feel? Do you think there's a reason Lucas is held back from kissing Maya? There's one person either one of you took in consideration is that your property nor is he Maya." She said as Shake my head no as I play with my hand in my lap. " no I don't want to going to saying that he's always going to choose me but maybe I don't want him to choose me! Because if he does it leaveq a broken heart Maya she's going to end up resenting me and where dose that our friendship, I don't know what's going to happen with me and Lucas but I know that I want maya in my world forever so maybe I can just push there's going to be other guys and Charlie Lucas and I know that so I'm OK with being alone now I'm OK with being single and happy being single that's what I know and that's what I have to remember!" There's more I kept talking the more I realize I was just trying to convince myself, but I know there's no convincing. " Riley whatever happened you and Maya are going to be best friends. I think you guys are fool yourself, you remember when I told you the wrong pressure can turn you want to dust, I think if you push Lucas and maya to be together you're probably ruin their friendship because Lucas probably going to resent Maya because the truth is He was going to stay to remain he's always going see a girl see here is the girl that stood in the way of you two be in the other. So I want to keep that in mind, good night honey I love you" she said as she kiss my forehead, before getting up and leaving. I sat there in the dark, I trying to understand what she was telling me. I heard my phone ringing but I refuse to answer it but I look at the screen and Charlie his face pop up. " what have I got myself into?" I Ask myself, against the wall and it lands on the pillow across the room still ringing. " what now"
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Fanfiction" then I guess that's it, we're done" I cried and he looked on the ground trying not to make eye contact with me. " I don't really want be but I don't want to hold you back" I looked into his green eyes, another seven years I still feel the same way...