Expressions of Love

Epilogue Part 2

Letting Go

TJ was so happy that Adam was back in the city. He had missed him greatly; however, he was dreading the conversation they were going to have. They had dinner and seen a show the night before. It was a great night. And it didn't end in making love. TJ couldn't, knowing what was on his mind. Adam was at his own New York apartment doing interviews for several entertainment news shows and one website. Sometimes it was just easier for everyone who wanted an interview to come to one place and take a number.

Waiting for Adam to finish and come over was nerve wracking for TJ. He tried talking to Ryan but it didn't help much. At this point, the conversation was unavoidable and the situation was close to getting out of hand. When they first got together, TJ didn't know if he could actually handle a long distance relationship. He was proud of what he had accomplished so far. He cared for Adam and he did fall in love with the superstar. But now things were changing and he wasn't so sure of what to do now.

Adam finally made it to TJ's and he was glad they were alone. TJ's roommate was spending the night with a friend since he didn't know how long this conversation was going to be. Or how either would react.

"Hi Honey." Adam said as his kissed TJ. "Don't you look relaxed?"

"I try. Come sit." They sat on the couch facing each other. Adam with his left leg underneath him, TJ pulled his legs up resting his chin on his knee. He took a deep breath to steady his nerves and emotions.

"Is everything ok? You don't look so relaxed anymore. Has something happened?" TJ was thinking of how to best approach this.

"Not exactly." Adam frowned at those words. "I'm trying to think of the best way to say what I have to say." Adam held TJ's hand for support.

"Just tell me sweetie. There's never been a time when we haven't been able to talk to each other."

"Well, you know when we started dating that I had never been in a long distance relationship before."

"Yes..."

"And I said, 'What the hell, for a chance at love I'll give it a try.' And I have. This has been one the best relationships I've ever been in. And I know it probably wouldn't have been without modern technology. I don't even want to think of how people did this before."

"It's been a great relationship for me too. It's been a long time since someone wanted me for me and not my fame." Adam could see the seriousness on TJ's face. "Come on; tell me what's going on." TJ sighed again.

"I met someone." He whispered. Silence. Adam slowly pulled his hand from TJ's grasp. "It's not exactly what you think."

"What the fuck TJ? What do you mean it's not what I think it is? What am I supposed to think?"

"He's just a friend." Adam's eyebrows rose.

"You expect me to believe that?" he replied with hurt and anger in his voice.

"Please, let me explain." TJ started to reach for Adam's hand but changed his mind. "We met at a fundraiser for Mike. He asked for our support, so we were there. We were standing at the bar and he came over and introduced himself. We all talked with him but somehow a little while later, it was just the two of us. And we talked about a lot of stuff."

"Does he have a name?"

"His name is Lucas Roberts. His friends and family call him Luc. He's an English professor at NYU, with a doctorate and he's an advisor with the Gay Student Union. So we were talking about me coming to talk with the students about volunteering, supporting gay rights and things they could do as students. He also thought it would also be a good idea because so many of them had watched the show."