The Fear Of Falling Apart

Part 1. Just think

I awoke to glass breaking and yelling from down stairs, which means my so called "father" is home, I don't like to think that he's related to me because I look nothing like him! He says I get it from my "mother" which I never knew, i've tried to ask about her but that just causes more pain. My "father" is always telling me not talk to anyone or even look at anyone, so I haven't talked in 7 years. So yes I'm mute.

I look at my clock to see its 10pm. I get up from my bed and attempted to squeeze under my bed to hide, but to my luck the door is kicked open and two huge arms are tugging me out of under my bed. He chucks me to the floor and starts yelling at me because his dinner went cold. Oops. I forgot to heat it. I mentally hit myself for it,

I'm used to this now, all my life I've been told every single day. I was an accident and I'm worthless that no one will love me or even like me.. My "father" attempts to grab me but I kick him back and rush out the door running down the stairs I hear him yelling at me to come back. Hell Na am I doing that.

I sprint outside and run, I keep running till I make it to my SafePlace. I fell the soft long grass at my feet, then I realise I'm there, I look above and see the long trees stretching out over me, through the trees I can see the glimmer of tiny stars,
I lay on my back and close my eyes sometimes I just wish I could stay in this time forever, the wind in my hair, the butterflies softly flying in the wind like their swaying to the beat of music, ever since I was little I've only been there for myself, just Me Myself and I no one else, I've decided I'm going to be a cat lady when I'm older cause Cats are great,
I've always had a thing for Wolfs they seem so free and wild, not a care in the world, Sorry I'm rambling.

I feel like I've been here forever In this moment in this time, not that i would mind, I stay still listening to the wind, but I hear something else, i sit up to listen I hear yelling in the distance and it's getting closer I jump to my feet and run to a large rock, I hide behind it and start shaking I have really bad asthma and start breathing heavily,

I suck in a big breath and listen for anything I hear many heavy footsteps walking past
"I saw him run that way tho" I heard someone say "Well he's not here dipshit" another voice said "Hey, wait guys do u smell that?" Said someone else
I start freaking out and start crawling away, hoping that the long grass won't make a sound.

I hear them slowly stepping closer to look around the rock I'm behind, and I jump up and sprint away, running has always been my strong suit, if I need to get away from any situation I will run. There's a reason why I keep myself alive, I believe that everything happens for a reason, even though life does have its downs there's a light at the end of the tunnel and u just have to keep going,

Okay I'm goin to stop with this Hanna Montana shit and keep my mind straight, so think Dani what can I do in this situation, I'm running from men I don't even know and Im far out in the woods where I could get possibly get killed! Okay.. okay.. okay.. I'm okay, just keep running I say, keep running, I slow down after a long time of running and decide to sit down and relax to catch my breath, I had no idea what to do since I was lost.
So I started to sing to myself ...

(I've been trying to find, when to cross that line

When it's okay to see the brightside when it's okay to see the limelight

I've been thinking in my head, Ive been thinking in my head

Lots of things on my head, constipating in my head

And if we going to go steady then we gonna go steady let me know if you're ready, if you're ready,

Oh I wanna fly but I just cant live without you yeah you make me cry but I know that I just cant hurt you I wanna fly

Ohohhoh)-

I snap my head in the direction of rustling bushes, and jump up on my feet then lower myself to the ground no knowing what to do, the rustling got louder and I started to hear voices, by this time I was freaking out! Why would these people be so far out in the woods??