*Niagara Falls-10:20 pm*
Rebecca's POV;
"Wow" Adam says gazing at the water falling from right under our feet. "This place is beautiful". He says.
And I don't blame his amazement by the scene. The tall threads of water falls into its sink in beautiful tall threads with the moonlight touching them and making them illuminate in this complete darkness in an adorable way that makes you eager to spend days and days doing nothing but letting their magic take you to the fake world that you created inside your own damn mind, and forget all about how fuck up reality is. And if you succeed in doing that, you could proudly call yourself alive, but deep inside you, you are sure that you aren't.
But unfortunately, I have no more time to live this false, beautiful cover of life and getting fooled by it everyday. Now that I know the awful truth, I can no longer live on a false hope that life will get happier or easier.
And I envy those who can do this without even getting tired of it.
"You sure gonna jump?" Adam asks cutting my thoughts one last time and I roll my eyes.
"Ain't this why we came here for?" I say.
"He won't get hurt when you do this, you know". My body shakes when he brings this subject up. "No one will get hurt except yourself". He says. "And me".
"Adam, I can't...." I begin but he cuts me off.
"I'm not trying to convince you to not do this, all I'm doing is reminding you. The choice is all yours". He says. "It has always been yours". He says and I look at him directly in the eye closing the few inches that were between us.
"This place is beautiful". He says trying to escape my glance and looking away but he fails because I position his face back to mine again. "So you are". He says and wraps his arms around my waist. "And whatever your choice is...." He says and buries his face in my neck.".....I will always support you". He finishes.
And all my walls fall by now. I wrap my arms around him too, embrace him tighter and tighter and his body relaxes with my arms around him. And this was my first time to hug somebody.
It's not like I don't do hugs or anything, absolutely not. I've been hugged before. A lot. But I've never started hugging someone, people are always those who wrap their arms around me.
"Uhmm....thank you". Adam says as we pull away.
"It feels good you know". I say.
"Hugging someone feels good". I explain when he seemed confused.
"You should try it with more people you know, your mother maybe". He says and deep inside I know that he knows that he won't persuade me with those words.
"I'll miss you". I say taking my heavy white pullover off my head and this leaves me with my undershirt and my pants.
"I'll miss you. I'll always miss you". Adam says and I look back at him and give him a small smile.
I walk closer to the beginning of the fall looking at Adam who is staring at me silently. I reach the very beginning of the fall and stare at the bottom of it and this is when I realized how high this fall is.
And memories hit me.
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"I did all of this because.... I love you". Justin said while looking at me directly in the eye.....
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"Don't let him fool you". My mother said with a pity look on her face. And I ignored her words....
I should have listened to your words mother.....
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"You have a very sexy body, Rebecca". Justin said as he takes my shirt off my head and all I did was laying on that bed smiling at him and let him take what he wants from me....
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"He's filming all of this". Adam screamed at me, and Justin grabbed a hold of his shirt and punches him hard in the face...
And I laid there speechless. .....
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"I swear I didn't know about all of this, I didn't know he was such a fuckup, let me in Becca. Please let me in". Carla said on the other side of the door.
"Go away". I told her. And unfortunately, she did....
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"Rebecca...I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for leaving you alone. God, do you even here me?" Adam said while shaking my weak body that was lying on the floor. Although my eyes were closed but I could hear every single word he said.
"We should take her to the hospital". Carla told him.....
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"Self harming is a big psychological issue that should be solved by now. You have no idea where these problems would lead to, she may have suiciding thoughts". The doctor told Adam and left my room.....
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"I don't blame you". Adam said.....
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"Becca". Adam calls my name out when I was only a few inches away from the very end of the rocks holding the water.
"Yes?" I turn my body around and ask him. He walks fast towards me and closes the big gap that was between us.
"Hear me out without cutting me off please." He and I nod. "Well, when you first told me about that suiciding thing. I thought that it was a joke or something. I've always thought that you were only being over-dramatic and I'm sorry that I did so. But now, right now, it is the first time to take it seriously. I didn't want to believe you at first, but now that we're here....." He says as he wipes a tear that tried to escape from his eyes. "......I'm jumping with you. And I believe that you should respect my decision just like I respect yours". He finishes his words as he kneels down to take his shoes off.
"But....you have a love". I tell him. "One Day you will have the chance to tell her that you love her". I say as he stands back up.
"She's dead... My love is dead". Adam says and my mouth drops open.
"W..when?" I ask. He had never told me about this before. The few times we talked about her, he only told me brief things about her, and how much she resembles me.
"Now". He says as he grabs my waist close to his body and pushes himself, taking me with him, into the water.
It all happened to fast for me to recognize it. I found myself in his arms flying in the air, the cold wind hitting us and when I look down there were only a few meters between us and the water, only a few meters and we will be done. I close my eyes to enjoy this joyful moment that I didn't have the chance to create it for myself. I thought my thoughts would end up by now but....
"She's dead... My love is dead". Adam said.
"W..when?" I asked.
"Now". He said.
What??!!
And that's when we hit the water like a hard rock or heavier.....
A.N
No, it's not the end.
It's only the beginning.
We still have a long trip so,
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