We talk late at night a lot. I don't tell her everything but we do go back and forth quite a bit. I tell her a lot that I wish she was here with me. She says the same thing and it always brings a smile to my face.
I see her in school everyday. I like spending time with her. She makes me happy. I can't fully explain everything about her but she is something different; but in a good way. She has an original sense of humor. I can always laugh with her. She is just an original person. I like that's she's different. Its nice to have a friend that doesn't care about all the drama and just cares about her friends. She is a bold person. She is selective but that's a good thing in my mind. She knows the difference between right and wrong and she knows how to be a good person.
She may have her bad days but that doesn't change how I think of her. It just makes me want to help her. She doesn't want me to help her sometimes and I get that, but it doesn't mean I'm going to give up on her. I would never do that. I find it hard to talk to her sometimes. I just don't know what to say. She makes me feel different than some of my other friends. I am truly happy around her. I don't really understand how I feel...but I like the feeling. When she is with me, that feeling I get in my stomach. Butterflies I think, but I don't really know. Its easier talking on the phone because she cant see my face, but I wish we could talk more like that in person.
She helps me a lot. If I have a nightmare, she can usually help me through it. She knows how to calm me down if I get anxious or overwhelmed. We don't talk like that in person but the conversations on the phone, its nice.
So now I'm here, sitting right next to her as I write this. She won't read it till later, but I know she is reading it. I like knowing that she likes my writing. It makes me feel special to her. If only I could tell her everything else...
