You Are The Heart So Don't Go And Change Your Life *Completed*

You Are The Heart So Don't Go And Change Your Life~ Story

[The Day before Jade’s Death]

Life is hard for me and I can’t take any more of it. I’m a gothic freak. I get bullied about my sexuality. Because I’m bi- sexual. 

My name is Jade Summers. I am a beautiful girl but no one seems to see that. You see people at my school bully me for well.... being me. Every day I would go through bullying and it’s being going on for years now. I can’t take much of the bullying any more. But I have now turned to self harm. My pale skin is covered in ugly scars caused by a tiny object called a razor. Every night, I would cry my self to sleep because of the emotional pain that has being caused. The school counsellor told me to ignore it but it continued to get worse. My parents didn’t actually care about what was going on. I tried to explain what was going on to them but they didn’t listen to me. 

I was walking to class on the Tuesday, the day I had most of my favourite classes. I turned a corner heading up the stairs, and some one pushed me down the stairs. 

‘FREAK!’ Some one said to me. I distinguished the voice as a boy’s. He pushed me backwards making me fall. I fell down 3 steps, falling and hitting my ankle on the way down and hitting my head against the hard stairs. Hitting a platform at the bottom. Pain shot through my body as I got up. Tears were streaming down my face. 

‘What have I ever done to you?’ I screamed at the people that stood around me laughing at me to be precise. Tears were streaming down my cheeks, I just couldn’t take it any more.

I tried to run but the pain in my ankle made me hobble to the principle’s office.

‘Jade, what’s the matter deary?’ The assistant principle asked me. She was a nice woman.

‘Mrs. The students’ here are pushing me around and there is nothing I can do to stop them from doing what they are doing to me....’ I explained. I explained to the Assistant Principle how the students’ pushed me around and also pushed me down the stairs. I even showed her the scars that I had from the self harm that the students’ had caused me to do. 

The students’ told me that I was worthless, that I was unwanted, and that I was a freak. They would verbally abuse me, mentally abuse me and cause me physical pain. I had had enough of what they were causing me. The school had sent me home and I now sat in my room listening to some music until my Mum came home. 

‘Jade?! Are you home?’ My mother called out. My father left us a long time ago and this is where we stayed. She was a loving mother. But I did keep things from her. 

‘I’m up here!’ I called out to Mum. She came up stairs and saw me huddled in a ball on my bed crying.

‘Oh honey.... It’s okay’ Mum smiled at me. She came over and sat down on my bed pulling me into her lap. She calmed me down as much as possible. Once she calmed me down she then went off to make dinner. 

~ At Dinner ~

Mum had called me down to dinner. She had made egg on toast as something simple. 

Dinner was quiet as we ate. I just pushed the food around on the plate. I had a lack of appetite. 

‘Mum,’ I asked out of the blue. ‘Can I please have the day off tomorrow?’ 

Mum looked at me with a little concern. I just told her that I was feeling a little under the weather. Mum just nodded her head in understanding. 

~ Later that Night ~

Later that night; I laid in my bed. Contemplating what I was going to do tomorrow. And then I knew that I couldn’t take any of this any more. I knew that I had to do something. I also knew that I’ve had enough of the shit that I was being put through. Just laying there in the pitch blackness of my room. Just letting the tears stream down my cheeks, allowing the pain to come from the physical abuse that the students’ at my school had put me through. Crying myself to sleep. I fell into a dark, nightmare filled sleep....