Its a party!

who I am..who I used to be

"Let go of your worries" they said "have a drink it won't hurt" THEY SAID!!

May I not start my story of rage like this, I will start at WHO I am, who I was before this misery.
My name is charity, I am what people call the outsider. I am not one who as a kid dreamt of being carried away by a prince, tho it wouldn't hurt still i dreamt of being a hero someone who saved a damsel in distress. You see when I was young I thought of a bride or a groom to me either would have done as long as i knew they loved me and i loved them.

I was always a loner stuck in my thoughts as a child, even now I suppose. I would keep my head wrapped around a world I created all by self. I knew all the names, ages, and birthdays of the people who lived there. I would save this world from enemy I made so I could be a hero, not the stupid girl who always got sick in bed. Not the girl who didn't understand anything in school, not the girl who couldn't even speak without miss saying the word she ment. I have issues I've had issues for a long time. I knew I was different since as a child I grew happy to be alone.

I loved when I didn't have to go to school any kid would but my reason was different. I didn't know anything there the school system never helped me. When i would miss days due to my lack of health they wouldn't help me as well as they could've. Also I felt scared with students who I never really spoke to at all. I was bullied alot called names, they hated how I'd hum in class, how I would speak to a friend only I could see on the playground. They used to push me to the edge of crying, but due to my stupidity as a child I fell easily in to traps from people who said I was their "friend." acourse to them surprisingly they got away with it. I hated being tricked and when a adult would ask what happened I just stood and said "I don't wanna say who! please don't make me.."

I loved my world my people but all good things must end I guess. Because when I finally was becoming happier in my life it all went. My imagination wasn't there and I knew I had to deal with it I had friends now I had people to talk to besides my parents. I was happier in this point of time but I still missed how i would hero now all I did was sit and laugh with the people who were nicest to me. As for everyone else I kept a good space of I will be nice to you but I am not to close to you or not used to you.

Its what I did, I kept distant for a long time. this is how it stayed until highschool started. Thats when ALL HELL broke loose.