POEMSSS

Insomia

Pillow, blanket, plushie I'm ready

Time to close my eyes and wait for morning to come

But my eyelids are to afraid to close

my brain won't stop thinking

and now you come along and open my ears so I can hear my brother snoring in the next room even louder 

and I can hear every crack of the ceiling and every whisper of air

but I can't seem to sleep

not only do I have stress on my mind but instead of leaving money like the tooth fairy

you leave a lump in my throat that won't go away

you put a thought no wait thoughts in my mind that do not vaporize with a snap

and every time someone's headlights from outside the window cast light inside my room another drop of fear poisons me

not because headlights are scary but what you tell me about them is what makes me fear

your like a bully 

I think i'm good and i've recovered from your scratches and bruises but the second I stand up and dust off 

You push me back down again and tell me everything that's wrong with my life

'nobody likes you they only like your friends oh wait you only have one they don't know who you are why do you wave to them they aren't laughing at your joke they are crying in another language your not good enough friends to say Hi he doesn't like you back so don't talk to him...'

I'm sick and tired of every sickening thing you tell me before night because sweet bedtime stories became years of screaming at my parents explaining who you are

but I didn't know what to call you because I was 8

I learned how to not be tired but yet I could never cover the bags you left under my eyes

thank you for them by the way they are now a permanent part of my face

i'm glad you made them purple because that's my favorite color 

Goodnight insomnia oh wait.