Permenant Stain

Chapter One

I pushed the door lightly with the gift that I bought for Justin last week and a bright smile planted on my face.

"Suprise-"

I dropped the gift box. My mouth was widely opened, thus, I was literally shocked. Justin licked his lips, mumbling to speak. I rolled my eyes and slammed the door. Tears streamed down. I couldn't wipe em off, I think I should blind myself from seeing something that can hurt my feelings. I walked away from Justin's hotel room and went down to the nearby cafè.

I dragged the chair out and place my ass onto the comfy seat. I rubbed my temples and kicked the other chair infront of me. Well, people looked at me weirdly but I dont fucking care cause I shouldn't give a damn, I guess rather than they giving me weird faces around why don't they come to me and ask what's wrong. Ugh fuck everyone. I pulled up my iphone and start texting my basic bitch, Lynne.
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I throw myself to bed and think of something nice like going for a holiday at Hawaii, looking at the beautiful sun rising and stuffs. As I get into my deep thoughts, a notification popped up on my screen.

Justin : babe, I know it's hard to accept what...

I swipped my bottom screen and key on my 4 digit passcode to read the full message.

Justin : babe, I know it's hard to accept what you saw and I can explain... I just want to meet you please?

I turn off my phone and throw it aside. It's been years me and him dated. I treat him with full of love and he just payed me back with a piece of shit? I regretted for falling into an idiot like him. He don't desserve my love. Yet, today was our 4th anniversary. I was planning to give him his favorite branded watch. But when that bitter moment in life happened, everything changed. I don't feel anymore love towards him.

"DINNERS READY HURRY UP AND COME DOWNSTAIRS!" Dad yelled.

I didn't realize that tears were falling off, I quickly wipe it off and get out of bed. I ran downstairs and sat on the dining chair while dad places the meal on the dining table. I grabbed some salad and it's dressing sause. Dad grabbed his favorite chicken wings and ate it. It was an awkward silence as usual. Me and dad doesn't talk much.

What about my mom?

I don't know what happened to her. When I was young, dad told me that she started drugs since she was 18. Dad didn't know that she was drug addict until one day he found out from the doctor. I was lucky because when she was having me in her womb, she started avoiding drugs because she doesn't want me to get hurt. She loves me as much as I love her. I feel so sad because she continued doing drugs when I was 12. Before that, she used to accompany me to sleep, giving me goodnight kisses, calling me 'sweetheart' and always cuddle me. I missed those times so much. But no matter what I still love her, like how she care about me in her pregnancy. But dad, he hates her so much when she started drugs again. But he still love me tho.

I swollowed my last food and get up from the chair. I washed my hands and get back into my room.

Fuck My Life.

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OKAY FIRST CHAPTER SUCKS I KNOW. I'LL PROMISE TO MAKE IT INTERESTING. SORRY FOR NOW. BYE♡