Forgotten

Chapter 3

Chapter 3:

I slowly walked in fidgeting with my fingers nervously. I couldn't help but think something was wrong. I walked to the back to meet up with Payton and sat on a bench near the gymnastic area. I decided to text him to let him know i was there.

Charlie: hey im here. Im at the gymnastics window:)

Payton<3: ok be right there

Paytons POV:

I got a text telling me where she was. I started to trudge my way over there unsure of how to do this. I really have no idea what to say. Before i knew it i saw her bright red hair peeking out from behind the bench. I walked up behind her.

"hey Charlie" i greeted her with an awkward half smile. I could see on her face that she knew something was up.

"hi Payton. Whats wrong?" she said it with such concern in her voice that i knew this would be harder than i thought.

"well theres something i need to tell you" i managed to get out. God at this point she already looked broken from the inside out. And she doesn't even know the worst part.

"go on.." she mumbled.

"well.. I think.." i started.

"think what..." she asked. I could tell she was scared of what was to come.

"Charlie-

Charlies POV:

"Charlie, i think im gay" he finally spoke. Wait what? I could feel the tears pricking at my eyes.

"s-so, you dont l-love me anymore?" i stuttered as the tears started to stream down my face.

"of course i still love you! But more as a friend than anything else" he said in an attempt to comfort me.

Thats what i was afraid of. I just sat on the bench an let the tears fall freely trying to come to grips with the fact that my worst nightmare had just come true. I now had to try to live my life without having Payton to get me through. He was the one who made me promise to stop cutting, the one who made me believe that i was beautiful the way i was when he found out i didn't eat. He was the one who made everything in my life feel okay again. He held me in my arms trying to comfort me but it didn't do much good knowing that the feeling was gone. Then one question sprung to the front of my mind.

"what made you realize you are gay?" i suddenly looked up to face him. I couldn't help but think that it was me. I wasn't good enough. Now all of a sudden he would rather be with a guy than me. As if reading my mind he started to talk.

"it had nothing to do with you, i promise. You are everything any guy could ever want so don't you dare think for a second that you weren't good enough. Actually, what made me realize it, was... Dylan."

I just sat there in shock. Of course i knew he would say something to make me feel better but, Dylan? As in his best friend dylan? As in Jaceys ex Dylan? That Dylan. Well obviousl its that Dylan, its the only Dylan we bith know.

"so wait, Dylans gay?" i asked

"yea.. He feels awful for breaking up with Jacey, espestially over the phone like he did. But when we were hanging out at his house last night, we were just laughing and hanging out and the next thing i knew, he kissed me.. At first i was shocked but then i realized that i wasn't as freaked out by the fact that he did it but more by the fact that i liked it. It was at that moment that i knew i felt something with him that i had never felt before. Im so sorry. I really never wante to hurt you, but do you think we could still be friends? Like good friends?"

I just nodded. I knew things were never going to be the same between us. I told him that i had to get back to Jacey so i got up and headed for the door. I looked like a complete mess with my makeup running down my face but at this point i really didn't care. It was pouring rain outside and my hair was sticking to my face as i sprinted down the sidewalk to the bus stop. I didn't care what anyone thought and just plugged in my headphones and stared out the window heading home.

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