collide.

with or without me.: 0.4

• sky

I woke up for school, feeling good, I quickly did my makeup, and called a cab.

once I got to school, I seen kas, davie, and Suzanna sitting together, I sat in a desk in the back so I could work.

after I did my work, I messaged my mom, then the bell rang.

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it was break, I felt drained, I felt lost, and I felt numb, I didn't know what to feel, I didn't know how to feel.

I went to the back, and took my smokes out, and got one from it.

once I smoked it, I went inside, and I felt worse, I didn't know why I was feeling so depressed, I'm not depressed, i get sad a lot but I'm not depressed.

I sighed, as I seen kas, she smiled at me, I forced a small smile, and looked at my phone, and walked to my locker.

I seen suzanna, and she seen me, she gave me a peace sign, and once again, I had to force a smile, I didn't talk to anyone today but my friend Bridget and kas in second period.

I walked past Suzanna, and got my stuff from my locker, then went to my third period, once I got in class, I felt like just dropping everything I had, and to go home, but I couldn't.

I sighed, and sat by davie, while my teacher talked about what we were going to catch up on.

I wanted to leave, I couldn't deal with another class while feeling like this, I couldn't concentrate.

after taking out my phone, I messaged my auntie, asking if I could skip third period because I had 'cramps.'

she said yes, and my teacher walked over to me, and telling me what work I need to do.

"can I go home, I have cramps." I lie, and he nodded.

"yeah, if you're feeling sick, go sign out at the front." he smiled, I nodded, and grabbed my things, and walked to my locker.

I put them away, and sighed, as I walked to the front, and signed myself out.

I walked out of the school, and walked towards my house, I couldn't think straight, I felt dizzy.

once I got home, I laid in bed, and thought about everything, then I started breathing heavily, I couldn't do anything right, I tried to go to all my classes today but I couldn't, I can't even make my parents proud, I always skip a class or two and I'm sick of it.

I just want everyone to be happy.

with out without me.