Video Stars- JeanMarco fanfic (BoyxBoy)

Hello Darkness My Old Friend

I moved back in with Marco but still felt guilt... When Marco was basically starving and slowly dying I was out with another guy. His name was Bertholdt. He was the sweetest guy ever, even sweeter than Marco. He was very tall and very handsome. But he told me terrible news, he was going to join the army. He left a couple days ago and that's when I decided to go back to Marco. The day he left was very emotional for me, we were at the airport and he was saying his final goodbye to me, I didn't know if I was ever gonna see him again. I hoped for the best. He gave me a kiss and then pulled me into the best warmest hug I had ever had. I started to cry,

~flashback~

"Hey, hey look at me. Hey! Jean." He smiled "it's gonna be okay, you'll be alright. I promise I'll come back." He said calming me

"O-okay." I sniffed

"I love you Jean." He said kissing me one final time

~End of flashback~

Okay now we fucked, multiple times. I'm talking hardcore like the way Sebastian fucks Ciel. Yeah I really loved that man... But I really love Marco too.

"It's great to have you back." He smiled hugging me

"Great to be back." I forced a smiled. I don't think he noticed.

I walked to my room and shut the door, I unpacked my clothes and plugged my headphones into my phone. I turned the volume up all the way in attempt to drown in music. The song seemed to match my life perfectly. It was Hallelujah by Panic! At the Disco.

Ohh!
A moment you'll never remember
And a night you'll never forget!
Ohh!
All you sinners stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
Show praise with your body
Stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
And if you can't stop shaking, lean back
Let it move right through ya (hallelujah!)
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
(Hallelujah!)
My life started the day I got caught
Under the covers
With secondhand lovers
Oh, tied up in pretty young things
In a state of emergency
Who was I trying to be
Then the time for being sad is over
And you miss them like you miss no other
And being blue is better than being over it (over it)
All you sinners stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
Show praise with your body
Stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
And if you can't stop shaking, lean back
Let it move right through ya (hallelujah!)
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
(Hallelujah!)
I was drunk and it didn't mean a thing
Stop thinking about
The bullets from my mouth
I love the things you hate about yourself
Just finished a daydream
Who were you trying to be
Then the time for being sad is over
And you miss them like you miss no other
And being blue is better than being over it (over it)
No one wants you when you have no heart and
I'm sitting pretty in my brand new scars and
You'll never know if you don't ever try again
So let's try
Let's try
Let's try
All you sinners stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
Show praise with your body
Stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
And if you can't stop shaking, lean back
Let it move right through ya (hallelujah!)
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
(Hallelujah!)
All you sinners stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
Show praise with your body
Stand up, sing hallelujah (hallelujah!)
And if you can't stop shaking, lean back
Let it move right through ya (hallelujah!)
Say your prayers
Say your prayers
Say your prayers

The songs went on, one after the other until I was completely lost in music. The words spoke to me and I just huddled up with my knees to my chest hoping and praying that Bertholdt would be alright. I was right in the middle of another Panic! At the disco song when my headphones were ripped from off my head.

"Jean what are you doing?" Marco asked

"Oh just listening to music." I fake smiled

"Oh okay!" He bought it

"Why whatcha need?" I asked

"Nothing I just want to be with you." He said laying next to me

I week went by and I was starting to get my mind cleared up about Bertholdt. When this happened-

"Jean the mails here." Marco said walking in

"Oh yeah?" I asked looking up from my phone

"Yeah there's one here for you from... The military." Marco said handing it to me. I snatched it and ripped it open. I quickly read it.

Dearest regards to Jean Kirschstien-
We are very sorry to inform you that cadet  Hoover has died in battle. He had taken a fatale gun wound to the heart and died instantly. We are sorry for your loss- Survey Corps

"No!" I screamed throwing the letter

"What?" Marco asked picking it up and reading it "did you not get in, you were going to join the army?!" Marco said sadly.

"What?! No!" I yelled

He read it and got mad, his stance got stiff and he folded his arms, "who's Cadet Hoover?" He asked impatiently

"No one." I said snatching the letter back and shoving his out the door and locking it.

I threw things and broke things, hit the wall, messed my bed up. He was gone.

"You promised! You said you'd come back!" I yelled and screamed while crying in the corner gripping my hair "come back Bertholdt, come back."