My name is Allysia. I am just like any other girl.I wish I was beautiful.I wish I was perfect.I walk into the hallways.I get judged for my looks.If only they knew my life and story.I am crushing on a guy.He is tall,cute dimples,blue eyes,and has an Australian accent.But it will never happen.
One day,I was in science class.Minding my own bussiness.When suddenly,I hear this guy yell at me "YOU WORTHLESS FAT HOE!" It hurted a lot. My crush even laughed.I tried to hold in the tears,but I couldn't.I ended up crying like a bitch.Nobody bothered to say sorry.At lunch,not even the nerds would want to sit with me.I will sit in a corner.All alone and eat my lunch.
I was a loaner at school.Nobody had my back.Maybe not even the Principal.But they had no idea what i've been through and had no idea how much it hurted.
When I got home,I gave hugs to my mother and did my homework.I then recieved a text message from an unknown that said "Someday,I will jump you and make sure you suffer.'' I was scared.But I didn't bother to tell my mom. I cried myself to sleep that night.
After a week,I got tired of being ugly,so I put tons of makeup and wore the best clothes I had. Nobody gave a single fuck.All the girls called me a Prostitute and Slut.
I felt lonely.I felt suicidal.But I didn't do it,because I knew my mother loved me.
After 4 years,I was finally in 12th grade.I didn't get bullied anymore,because I had an idea.I decided to lose weight,wear more make up,and wear cuter clothes.Some people noticed and smiled.It made me feel better.I met a new friend called Chloe.She was pretty and friendly.
I think I was finally enjoying my life.No more bullshit and problems.I dated a cute guy named Mark.I had more friends.And I got along with everyone.
One day,I was cleanin my room and got a text message.It was from an unknown person saying. "You're gonna die tommoroe (;" It was the same number from the unknown person that threatened me 4 years ago. I couldn't take it anymore,so I wrote my mom a letter and after that,I slit my throat with the blade I used to cut with.I bet you nobody will notice.
(To Be Continued.................)
The Suicide Letter:
Dear Mommy,
I'm sorry I had to let you go.I love you.
There was just too much going on and I couldn't take it.I'm sorry if I ever made you mad.
You can live without me.Don't worry.
Everything will be okay.I just don't belong in this world.
Love,
Your daughter Allysia <3
