My Longing Love For You - Soraru x reader

Chapter 1

  ~Flashback~                                                                        

You still can't forget the incident that happened to you three years ago..... The day that you almost commit suicide because of unbearable depression that you been holding to yourself for years. You don't even know yourself anymore. Later that evening on raining day,you were listening to kagerou daze (or heat-haze day). You been thinking if you gone will your death be remember? all of the mix up negative thoughts have been driving you madness until.... You found a new song from Jin(If you don't know him he is a vocaloid producer known as shizen no teki-P he is the who create Mekakushi Actor :D).

This is strange for you since you only know vocaloids.You decided to clicked the video.The title of the video is Kimi no me wo - Soraru (Your eyes).

One by one, I gathered
the sounds you liked to hear
though the sounds by themselves, really
hurt my ears so much it was unbearable

I'll stop playing the guitar I started strumming yesterday for a while
I was just trying to copy the sounds of the CD I borrowed from you

So, just as I thought, to keep you from knowing
I can't shut it away
From the chord that's about to be flooded
Another's smell leaks out

Ah, it's become yet another song with the same ambience

It's not anything else, it's a song
Made to capture "your eyes" and your attention
That's why this song seems so much
Like that artist that you like

"There's no twist" "There's no charm"
Go on, I don't care, even if you speak ill of me
It's alright. For now, all I want
Are your eyes looking right here, at me.

Oddly, this song
Is starting to get awfully popular
It seems that I haven't yet
thrown away all of my good taste

Hearsay, gazed at with seemingly overflowing curiosity
Somehow, I feel like I've become king

But then, you know, everything other than this
Have all been turned to fakes for me
It seems that, inside me
The number to resuscitate doesn't exist

So, let's play something today, the same kind we always play

Not for a specific person, it's a song
Made to capture the "eyes of every person"
I'll set the theme, so
Just let your favorite chord reverberate

"It's not that" "It's not this"
If it's points of comparison, they're endless
Unable to stand it anymore, all I can do is cower
I don't even know where you are anymore

I really looked forward to it, you know
Is there anything that,
other than myself,
no one has?

Even though there's no such thing
I worried about it

No other song than this
Has "a piece of me" plucked out and placed in it
It has no twist and it has no charm
Just repeating an unskilled chord

I just shut my eyes earnestly
Wanting, very much, to scream
I think I heard your voice, saying
"It's fantastic, isn't it"

After the video end, suddenly your eyes fall a stream of tear without you even noticed." I can't even remember when is the last time I ever cried" you said to yourself. Since you don't even care about your emotions and you turned yourself into a lifeless doll for years just to survived the harsh world. You cried all night long because of his warm voice made you feel alived once more.

~End Flashback~

(A/N:What do you think about this story? :3 I hope you enjoy ~~ And I do not own the translation lyrics it belongs to  http://imomomomo.tumblr.com/  and please check out her tumblr she is AWESOME!! X3)