|Speaking to R.M|
Let me love you.
Let me breathe life into you.
Let me free you of your casted shadows
That trail down a long and dusty road.
This attraction between us
This rare and powerful treasure
And we cannot seperate.
Wanting to departure
Wanting to leave this world.
Is it all worth it?
In the end, when I have forgotten you
And my time has passed,
Will it be worth the pain?
I could just apologise.
I could just sing away the tears.
But because your stage light had outcasted mine, I had no choice.
I have run away from home.
I have left the last traces of me
At your doorstep.
Hoping you could just remember me
And smile...
This was all back then.
Back when I was young, and we had warm memories under the cherry blossom trees.
Back when I blew kisses over at you, and you would giggle away the pain.
After the doctors told you the news, I was afraid to be myself.
Being locked in the gates of a white room, and strapped to a bed stained with blood.
I was insane, and I couldn't accept that. The nightmares knocking on the door at night, with the merciless scream torturing me, I knew I wasn't going to survive.
Once I escaped, I had fled to the stage. The one place where I could concentrate; the one place you couldn't find me.
I was free to do normal things, and to live a normal life, but you found me. You had marched past me, living the rich life with flashing cameras. You would spit down at me, and trample over my path in life.
They said there was no cure. They said I couldn't be normal again. They lied.
I was normal. I had been doing things a normal person should do. Until you stepped out on the stage. You smashed my stage light, and you broke my microphone.
After all you've done, can I forgive you?
After all I've done, can you forgive me?
Will the echoing jukebox ever stop ringing in my ear?
I wander around in the abyss, not knowing where I'm heading. My mind is clear now, and the stars in the sky are finally visible.
Can I at least see you one more time?
Avoiding you is what's hurting me. I know I have been greedy, but I just need your love. Please just accept me.
What did I do to deserve such a painful life?
What can I do to pause time? To make time stop, so I can run,
I want to run, until my lungs collapse, until I see you in the distance, until I can reach you.
I want our hearts together. I want to lay beside you under the leaves, watching blossoms fall onto our noses. I want to stay at your side.
I want to be sane.
They told me I wouldn't make it. They told me that I had two more hours to live.
From what I learned, they were nothing but liars.
They were too blinded by calculations, and didn't realise the miracle. I would tell them that I was fine, but they held me back, as I watched you rise up before me.
Our love,
An inseparable force,
Yet we never meet.
It's like being on opposite sides of a stick. We will never meet, and will continue chasing each other for eternity. Life is always like a stick.
A rough, weak piece of wood, that can be snapped easily. You can't ever face reality, and you are stuck believing the decibels in the world. The ones who tell you that you can't survive. The ones that pull you down.
I have to face reality eventually, but right now, just let me close my eyes, and fantasise for a minute.
Watching you on screens hurt me even more. I can't stand to hear your voice. Your presences follows by ghosts, and dead souls. I can feel them watching. Death is near, and I am fully prepared.
If we ever meet again, please give me a chance. Just let me perform. Just let me strive forward. Let me take the spotlight.
Just return what's mine.
|Le End~|
Thanks for reading! If you don't know, this story is quite dark, but it's about a girl who goes insane one day, and her only medication is performing. Namjoon came along, and took away her fame, making her go back to being insane. She turned wicked, but her heart is keeping her alive. She wants to die, but her heart wants to see him one last time. She regrets her life.
This is pretty weird, but if you like this type of stuff, please comment! I like to write stuff like this every once in a while, just tell me who it should be for~
Thanks!
