DESTINY? (niall horan lovestory)

FEELING OF ABANDONMENT 

LONELINESS 

OR EVEN A REAL FAMILY 

I GREW UP feeling like that , i grew up as an orphan not a single memory of me being with my parents ,or any relatives if they are still any , if their even looking for me longing to be with me , I wonder if theyfeel what im feeling now....by the way im LILIANNE MARIE JONES , at least that's the last  name ingraved on my necklace that's the only thing my parents left me .  but the headmaster says my grandmother was the one who dropped me off here but whatver im tired of thinking of it .

im looking at the window just watching the snow fall down the ground while the other kids and making snow angels .. this just makes me smile and lighten up my mood everytime seeing kids happy .... 

"LILI?" mrs. susan called i turned around to face her , by the way she's the head master of the the orphanage who took care of me since the day i got here she's the person im really close to and i can tell my problems n secrets to. in short she's like my second mom more like the only mom i know 

"yeah? " i answered facing her with a smile on my face pretending that nothing is bothering me even tho there is 

" i know your upset" she sighed before she continued on what she way trying to say "LILI i know your upset that you got rejected again by another couple for adoption but trust there will be other couples that im sure of will adopt you right away" she reassured me trying to comfort me but i know she just really feel sorry for me 

I closed my eyes let a sigh come out trying to make the words come out of my mouth "IM TIRED " i reopened my eyes seeing a concered susan infront of me but i gnored it i let out a smile reassuring her that im just fine but deep inside i just don't want to talk about

iv been rejected too many times now it's been 18 years but still no one wants to adopt me , im not going to lie but im getting hopeless and im not hoping anymore that someone would adopt me ! an 18 year old ... i walked pass her and headed to my room locking it so no one can come in I grabbed my paint brush and painted the whole part of my cabinet door , this is the one thing that calms me down painting scetching my feeling out ....

i almost painted my whole room with all of the feeling iv been trough since i was a kid one i finished painting i layed down the bed thinking if anything interesting will ever happen to my life or will i ever find my real parents ... or even just one realtive will do 

i took the necklace  on my bedside table and just looked at it'S every carving and just then 

BLAG!

a Bird crashed into my closed window making me sit up and drop the necklace to the floor "DAMN! that scared me to death" i said to myself i looked down for my necklace and see it laying on the ground split apart into  two i immediatly picked it up trying to put it back together but then i saw a lil writing in the middle of the heartshape necklace 

-PARIS -

"PARIS'?" i asked myself ... what could this possibly mean? i thinked for an answer a possible meaning to this writing the came up to me could my grandmother be in paris ?" this could be it! i can finally look for the only realtive i have ... and maybe my parents is with her too ! " i stood saying this words to myself as i looked at the door and see mrs. susan standing there and said

"so your leaving?" 

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                               i hope you like it sorry for the short update tho but ill update tmmr  :D