"Ah this is how it should be" I thought to myself sitting alone taking in the scent of the musty old books surrounding me
"Are you sure?"
"Yes I am sure shadow" I would always turn on the one light in the center of the room so I could talk to my only true friend, my shadow
"Why don't you go home talk to your loved ones"
"I lost them long ago"
"Why not talk to some classmates?"
"Remember I don't know any of them, I just transferred here last week I haven't been to school yet I'm starting tomorrow"
"Oh yeah, please do try to make some friends Butler, you can't mourn your families death forever"
"I know that, but I don't get it I was with them, yet why was I the only one to survive?"
"Don't know, anyway it's late Butler you should get some sleep"
"Okay Shadow" and as this conversation ended I walked out of the dusty old library that was in the backyard of my foster parents house, walked inside the house, and headed to my room where I slept.
The next morning I woke up at 7, got dressed into my school uniform since I was enrolled at a private school and headed out to the kitchen where my new family was. In my new family I had an older sister name Claire she was 1 year older then me so she was 16, my new mum was called Delia she was over protective, and my new dad was called Andrew, he was really strict but it was a nice strict. This family was known as the Burlows. "Alexander come and sit down" said Delia while gesturing to come and sit at the table
"Please do not call me that foul name, just call me Butler." Claire slammed her fists on the table
"You never smile anymore, I have known you since you were a new born but ever since the accident it's like you have forgotten how to smile, you even went as far as having people call you a different name, it really upsets me you know" as you can tell they were family friends "I'm sorry Mrs Burlow but I am going to head off to school now"
"You haven't even had breakfast yet, why are you in such a rush?"
"I'm sorry Mrs Burlow, but I don't have to tell you that, anyway I am off" I grabbed my bag and rushed out the door. I started running down the street, I knew where the school was because I had visited it when Delia took me to enroll. After 10 minutes of running I reached the school gates, above the gate it said "Lioncloth school for the academically gifted" just looking at the sign gave me shivers but I walked into the school one step at a time everybody looked so proper and pampered, it made me feel out of place but even so I walked into the school and into the office. I was approached by the headmaster straight away "Ah you must be Alexander" I narrowed my eyes, looked him in the eyes and said "Do not call me that foul name" he looked scared and while shivering he said
"What should I call you then?"
"Call me Butler"
"Okay" just as he said that the bell rang " Butler first we have homeroom so I will take you to your class okay"
"Do what you want" He beckoned me to follow him so I did. While walking he said "your entrance exam results were amazing so you will be going into class S" after he said that we spent the rest of the walk in silence. When we reached the door the headmaster opened up the door and gave me a little push in, the homeroom teacher just stared at me along with the rest of the students, I looked around the class but I knew no one, that was to be expected but what I was really looking for was a spare desk, and one I found right in the back corner by the Window so I sat down in it. The teacher then proceeded to yell at me "ALEXANDER GET UP HERE AND INTRODUCE YOURSELF"
I reached into my bag and pulled out my lucky dart pouch, I drew one dart and threw it at the board right next to his head, then I stood up "I am Alexander La Cava please do not call me Alexander just call me Butler. " I then walked up to the board and retrieved my dart "you may now continue teacher" He then proceeded to call out the roll and teach the class math. After two Hours it was our first break, I instantly walked up out of the class room and headed for the library but it seemed word of me had traveled fast, I was approached by a lot of people on the way but I just gave them the cold shoulder and continued walking. As soon as I reached the library I headed inside it, nobody was in the library, no library monitor nobody but I soon found out why, there was one girl sat by herself at the Window she was reading Shakespeare's Hamlet so I simply said "Doubt thou stars are fire, doubt the sun doth move, doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt true love." She instantly looked up from the book and said
"You have read Hamlet, I thought nobody at this school liked classical literature"
"Actually I'm a transfer student"
"Oh so you are the one that threw the dart at Mr Mackie" I just laughed and said
"You heard about that?"
"And now you are giving everybody the cold shoulder"
"How did you know?"
"I am exactly the same, the only difference is I have been doing it for the last two years"
"Who are you?"
"That's a bit rude, why don't you be a gentleman and introduce yourself first"
"Okay I will, my name is Alexander, call me Butler I live with foster parents"
"Okay I am Elizabeth , call me Lizzy, I live with my biological parents, mind I ask but why don't you won't me to call you Alexander?"
"Because it is an unsightly name"
"Unsightly, how?"
"my old best friend his name was Alexander as well but one day he decided to play a prank on me by jamming the brakes in our car, it caused my family to die, my brother, father, mother my whole family to die it is a miracle I survived" she put her hands over her mouth and said "I am so sorry, I have touched upon a sensitive topic"
"It's okay but the funny thing is I didn't feel sad, I don't know how, it's like I broke and I just can't cry anymore"
"That's so sad, anyway why don't you come and sit down" I took her up on her offer and sat down next to her she then asked me "what class are you in?"
Me I'm in class S, what about you?"
"Class S as well but that is only because my dad is the headmaster"
"Oops"
"What's the matter" I busted out laughing and said
"Your dad called me Alexander and I gave him the death stare, he is now scared of me" Lizzy started laughing as well
"Oh my god that is so funny"
"Anyway I didn't Notice that you were in class this morning"
"That's because I wasn't, I can tell stand Mr Mackie so I just come in and hang out here while he teaches english"
"That makes sense anyway the bell should be ringing so wanna head back?"
"Sure, why not" and so like that we headed back to class like we were friends, when we walked in the whole class was shocked, suddenly I was grabbed from behind and put up against the wall, the person was big but all I said was "you would like something monkey?" I could tell who it was because he was in class S as well "you think your tough don't you Alexander" he called me Alexander so I grabbed his arm, threw it down and said " I thought I told the whole class not to call me Alexander" a kid then stepped out from the big guy and said
"Thank god it won't overlap with my name" I instantly recognized the kid it was my former best friend Alexander and seeing him made me snap, I grabbed him by the neck and put him up against the wall "YOU IT WAS YOUR FAULT!" He snickered and said
"It was a harmless prank what damage could it have done" he clearly wasn't aware of what had actually happened, but I felt tears swelling up in my eyes "Alexander thanks to that prank my family died" he looked shocked and I fell to my knees, Elizabeth quickly ran over to me, wrapped her arms around my back and asked "was he the one that pulled the prank?" I nodded and she stood up
"Thanks to you he has lost everything dear to him" the class just looked at the other Alexander shocked " anyway I'm going to take him to the infirmary to lay down" she then put my arm around her shoulder and took me to the infirmary. When we reached the infirmary she put me into one of the beds and I drifted off to sleep.
I quickly sat up in the bed, I was at home. "Something wrong Alexander?" I looked to my right and Elizabeth was right there but older than I had just visualized, she had her hand on mine "nothing is wrong I just had a dream about when we first met" that's right it is now 30 years later and the friendship that I had with Elizabeth developed into something more, we got married and are now living happily in a house in Madrid. Thanks to Elizabeth I came to terms with my actual name. She leant up and kissed me on the cheek, "head back to sleep honey it's 3 am and I have work in seven hours"
"Okay" and so I went off to sleep.
End Of The Meeting
Next: How I Came To Terms With My Name
