Loneliness,Emptiness,sadness,and worst of all darkness. everyone of those feelings Are what I Feel inside as you read this. And yes I know darkness is technically not a feeling,but that's how I feel when Im not with him.In the dark.everyday people that are close to me say "it's ok you'll find another fish in the sea."But that's the problem.I don't want another fish in the sea.I want to fish that was with me from the start. I know he's happy and I respect that but she treats him like total s*** and he's so oblivious to it. He's so blinded by her obvious beauty. Trust me, she already won five beauty pageants. But me on the other hand, that's a different ballgame. After we went our separate ways, things changed for me. My long hair was cut off, I started cutting classes and were darker clothes. Also I don't have many friends except for some really short nerdy kid that I'm only friends with because, hey I need to keep my grades up. Right. I mean why would anyone be friends with a walking zombie. I get called a freak and have my hair pulled daily when I'm in the locker room. I used to be the girl that everyone knew. I was actually happy and not crying every night thinking it was my fault that we separated. Things to say to myself " it's all my fault,its all my fault we seperated, it's all my fault that he cheated on me, I'm not as pretty as her, I'm not good enough."
