"I am not going on a blind date Shae" I spoke calmly with my head rested firmly in my hands, she was relentless!
"Please Tiffy! You’ll like this one, I swear!" her voice cracked with excitement. Sighing I stood up and looked in the mirror. My hair was growing out; my light brown hair with purple tips was a mess.
"Fine but no creepy old men okay?" I shuddered recalling my last blind date she set up for me. "He was 45! I am only 21!"
She laughed, "How many times do I have to apologize? You said you wanted someone older!"
"Yeah older! Not ancient!" I retorted laughing, recalling the horror on my face as a guy with a huge beard sat down and introduced me as his date.
"Look can we talk at school? I have to still shower!" I asked her looking at the time, It was 6:45am and we had to be at school at 8.
"Okay yeah" she said as I hung up.
I took a quick shower looking in my closet as I towel dried my hair,
What on earth should I wear?
I decided on black dance pants and a purple Shirt. eh, Good enough.
I climbed in the car with a piece of toast hanging out my mouth as my really attractive neighbor passed by me,
Perfect I thought to myself.
He must think I'm so retarded!
I placed my backpack and handbag in the car and my cup of coffee in the cup holder. I took my toast out and bit into it, I ate half and put the rest in a plastic bag. I put the car into gear and drove to school.
The song Dynamite came on the radio and I sang along to it.
"TIFFY" I heard Shaelyn Scream as soon as I walked up to my locker.
She was in Jean shorts and a black T-shirt. With some band I had never heard of on it, then again that wasn’t unusual since I got to America she's been trying to teach me all about "American" things. South Africa was just so different.
"Hey Shaela!" I smiled at her, she was too freaking pretty for her own good, and today her long brown hair was twisted up into a bun.
"What’s up?" We walked together to our first class, the classrooms were pretty much opposite each other, She had Geometry and I had Consumer Economics.
"So the date is set up for next Friday!" I groaned.
"Where did you meet this guy?" I looked at her scowling.
"He came over for dinner, works with my dad" I sighed.
"Okay Shae" Her dad was a writer for a few TV shows.
We walked into our separate classrooms and I sat down. I hated this class, it was always so noisy! Today we were watching a movie that was so completely unrelated to the class it hurt my mind. The Lorax.
As I sit on my favorite spot
waves crashing beneath me
wind rushing against my tear stained face
I feel the sharpness of the blade
as it sinks into my skin
the sudden pain
I know it will heal
but my heart wont
you left me alone in this cruel world
without a single good bye
how I wish you were here
I need you now more than ever
I look down
my pain vanishing
pools of red blood
growing on the ground beneath me
I feel a numb feeling creeping into my body
I’m lost and cant understand what’s going on
I look at my wrists
the blade went to deep
I now say goodbye and farewell
I drop the blade
sudden darkness
I cant feel a thing
I see your face
and know
I’m going to a better place
I wrote the poem in my notebook as I listened the class sing along to some song about being bad. Sighing I put my notebook away
You see, I wasn’t like most girls, I was here for a reason, I was here to escape. I closed my eyes letting my mind linger for a little bit. The darkness inside of me swirling around pulling up memories I had tucked away in a box.
BRIIIIIIIING
The bell rang and I jumped up in shock. I was the first to walk out. I walked into my best friend's class and waited for her to finish getting her stuff together.
"How was class?" I asked as we walked up the stairs.
"It was fine" She replied. I said bye to her as I walked into psychology class. This was my favorite class of the day, the class I actually understood.
"Today" the teacher looked at us "We will be talking about personality disorders"
as usual I answered the most questions in the class, while everyone else was on Facebook and twitter.
After school I drove home and lay in my bed. Temptations in my mind, No one would notice… I shook my head. No. Could today have been any more boring? Where was the excitement in life? I hatched an idea and called Shae
"Hey so you need to come over"
"Okay, why?" she replied warily
"We’re going out, doing something fun or stupid, or both."
She laughed at me
"Okay, I'll be over soon"
I got everything ready and waited for her to arrive.
Shae always supported me even though most of my ideas were terrible; In fact she saved my life...
My mind fled to a dark place but I shook it off. I could not go there!
I met her out side as soon as she parked
"Ready to go?" I asked excitedly
"Sure... " She said
