why?(Undertale Readerx?)

why?

You stood in a clearing with only flowers for company.

After you declined Toriel's request in living with her, she walked away. Leaving you to your own devices as you controlled the tremors in your body and how you bit back from calling her name.

You wanted to hug her before you left. You wanted to hold her tight, not wanting to let go as her soft white fur caressed you and how she would quietly shush at your sniffles. Asking what was wrong.

But you didn't.

You walked back into the entrance of the Underground. And you walked. And walked. No one was here. It was empty. Quiet.

'Lonely.'

You swallowed and kept going, scolding yourself on how Flowey could be right on how idiotic you were. How stupid could you be?

Why would anyone want to stay here?

"**👍☟✋☹👎📭"
"Child."

You felt a shudder run across your spine and looked around with hesitance. You then shook your head and continued on. Whoever's watching won't do anything to you. You knew that for a fact.

You wished you didn't.

And now here you are. You didn't see Asriel by the golden flowers anymore. You didn't see Flowey either. Your gaze dropped down in sadness as you felt defeated. You were unable to save him. No matter what you would do, you couldn't save either of them. You dropped down onto your knees over the golden flower bed, feeling nothing but softness. As if the flowers were trying to comfort you.

You bit back the tears that were trying to force their way through. Nothing can comfort you, not now. Not when you're body is already feeling heavy.

'Weak. What exactly are you doing?'

You closed your eyes as you tried to ignore the voice in your head.

'You can't ignore ME Frisk, you never could. Now, what are you doing? Why haven't you reset yet?'

*Say nothing.
❤️
*Respond.

*You decided to respond.❤️

'To let you control me again? To kill all of my friends? Family? I rather die then to keep doing this over and over again.'

It was silent for a moment, and then your mind was suddenly filled with fearful shrieks and yells that you felt your head was going to crack in two.

'What?! YOu IDIOT! Don't yOu UndErstand whaT yOu're doiNg?!'

You did.

'YOu woUld ratHeR DIE theN bE wIth yOur liTtle fRienDs?! Don't yOu carE foR thEm?! Don't yOu waNt tO Be wiTh theM?!YOu cAn! Over aNd ovEr anD oVer agaIn. YOu. Just. NeEd. To. RESET.'