I want you...I want us.

Chapter 14

Chapter 14:

I thought a lot about what Humna said last night and had come to a conclusion to focus on my life more and to treasure my friendship with Zayn forever. Just to lighten up mood I texted him, 

“Wake up sleepy pants; don’t you think you should be praying at the moment? Get up! P.s saw a yin yang poster, reminded me of you :)”

Asmara came from behind and took away my bag from me, “Hey! What are you doing? You know your roll number is about to come. Just five more students and then it’s you turn.” She said calmly. “Nothing, just texting… we should hurry up then it won’t take much long…” I grabbed my bag from her and quickly made my way to the hallway.

According to me I think my viva didn’t go pretty good because of what Zayn said. I don’t know it’s weird when you think you like someone truly and accept all of their flaws, having a bit of hope that they’ll change as the time passes by and start believing it as love. Well I think yes its love and talking about Zayn made me know a lot about him but he….. My thoughts got distracted when the head girl of our batch Samra came to me, “Farah, Dr. Imran is calling you. He is giving out results to everyone” she said, giving back my Anatomy notes which she took last week.

“Walk with me...?” I asked her to which she agreed. “…so what was your result? I hope he is not angry today.” I said as we walked down the hall way to Dr.Imran’s office. “…tell me later about it…bye” I smiled as I opened Dr. Imran’s door. Danish, one of my colleague who was a good book in every teacher’s eye or should I say chamcha. He wasn’t a nerd, actually he was the loudest kid of our class yet he knew how to win hearts of his teachers, and yes he was great at studies too. 

“So Farah Jamil, I was going through your papers well you failed it with flying colours and your viva didn’t go well either, on the whole you get a ‘U’ ” Dr. Imran said reluctantly handing me my test paper on which a big ‘U’ grade was written. “…you really need to pull your socks up before it’s too late or else you’ll have trouble in 2nd year”, he continued, whereas Danish on the other hand was smirking. That bastard! I simply nodded and left the room.

When dad saw my result he was very sad knowing it was my first test and got such bad remarks, though Humna knew what the reasons behind it were.

It had been exactly 3months since Zayn friend zoned me. We used to talk normal now I think, obviously after that incident, our first two Skype sessions went a bit awkward but we got over it easily. Humna used to think I might have forgotten about it and Zayn even said sorry on n off. I bet both of them thought the same that things are cool between us but actually it’s not; I mean firstly I like to keep my feeling to myself rather than blabbing it out to everyone.

They didn’t know I used to cry myself to sleep after every time I spoke to Zayn on Skype, knowing the fact that he can never be mine and that I should really accept that reality soon, as it’ll only give me tears and nothing else but little did he know about it.
But I had a fear. What if one day I totally got over with my feelings for Zayn, obviously I had this huge life ahead of me and anything could happen… good or bad.

*Zayn POV*

Since the day I told Farah that I don’t want to be in a relationship, she had been acting really different lately. At times she would have moist eyes and then she would laugh all of a sudden. She would talk about everyone but not about herself that much. No doubt she was a great friend and an adviser. It felt good talking about my religion with her as it was a common factor between us, she would always remind me through text messages to perform salat (prayers). She said she had set U.K prayer timings in her cell phone so that it’ll be easy for her to remind me, crazy girl.

I laughed at my own thought. I definitely liked her or should I say love her but deciding it’s love don’t you think it’s just too soon? Many do’s and don’ts were running in my mind and it was all creating more confusion. The only person who could understand me much better right now and give proper advice was Liam, though the other lads are helpful but today they had to go to Josh’s party. As everyone knows I’m not really a party animal so I didn’t go, and Liam just didn’t feel like going as he was tried. Poor lad. I grabbed my car keys, oh yes now I know how to drive as Farah said she was also learning it so I decided too and got it before her, victory ‘cause I won the bet.

“Leeyuumm…open the door mate...” I pressed his doorbell even harder, after five minutes he opened the door. “Oops sorry. I was watching some youtube video links….got a bit carried away”, Liam closed the door behind me as I entered his living room. “Want to eat something? Or maybe drink even?”, Liam asked as he made his way to the kitchen. “Nah... Nothing mate just come and sit with me, I need to tell and ask you something…” Liam came back with few packets of crisps and some mixed nuts. He sat beside me and took my hand and placed it on his head. “…I swear to god Zayn I’m straight and I’m happy with my girlfriend.” He looked at me with puppy dog eyes. “What is this yarrr…what has happened to your jokes??!” I said as I removed my hand from his head and crossed my arms. 

“Oh sorry I was just kidding…now tell me what happened? Is it about Farah?” Liam asked, grabbing a box of nuts. I nodded. “How did you know??” I was surprised. “Just look at you... It’s written all over your face!” Liam laughed and switched on his T.V. I told him everything from the start, since the day I followed her till date, how she was acting bubbly and weird at the same time…from hiding some of the things to changing the topic.

“Umm… Zayn we’ve also noticed a change in you and it’s a good change; you’ve started speaking more of Urdu which at times is really hard for us to understand…you are more confident than before I’m sure it’s all because of that pretty girl and just as you said you feel very protective about her and that you can’t stand it if she tells you about any boy she gets teamed up with.” Liam wouldn’t stop for a moment and I just listened to him quietly.

“Zayn, mate, you are just thinking too much… you should’ve confessed your love from the start, I mean mate these are the feelings you get when one is in love. I know you care a lot about her and don’t really want to mess up her life but mate, that’s what you need to teach her and you are not alone. We’re gonna help her too, with how to tackle things. Zayn it’s not too late either, go tell her now. The more you’ll delay it, the chances are she’ll get over you and then it’ll be a bad scene, and certainly you don’t want the tables to turn right?” Liam said as he finished his Pepsi can. A small smile crept on my face...I was happy. I was happy that I soon realized it and it was all because of my best buddy Liam. I kissed him on his cheek; said thank you…grabbed my car keys and left as quickly as possible.

I just had to tell her; she has to say yes for being my girlfriend. Liam was right. Farah is a drug to me, surely I’ll visit her one day. I regret seeing her in tears that day when I told her she just has a crush on me.

On my way back home I kept thinking of foolish things in my mind; like I was wondering if I was really in love then how come I never saw Farah roaming around me or me singing her a song in my mind. Even better, we are dancing together in rain on a classic bollywood tune aka Yash Raj and Karan Johar touch… I mean that’s what happens in bollywood movies… like that’s how desi people fall in love right??? Guess what? Nothing as such happened to me, or was I waiting for it to happen?? Maybe that’s what kept me confused and waiting.

It’s already night time in Pakistan; I don’t want Farah to sleep today, not until I confess her. I soon texted Farah:

“Skype in 40mins? I’ll be home in 30...x”

I changed the gage of my car and drove fast, this time the shit really needs to get real.

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Hey everyone!! hope you like this chapter...tell me what do you think will happen next? will Farah say yes this time...what if she plays tic for tac and says no?? do comment / vote and lemme know :)x

~AnonPakDirectioner~