The room seemed quiet as I walked back from the soccer field and that made me excited in hopes that the others were all out and I had the room to myself, but the moment my key turned in the lock and the door popped open I noticed it was empty. There lay Mia on her bed, her lipped pressed to a boys as she lay on top of him, legs on either side of her body, her skirt riding high and his hands pressed to her thighs. A small squeal left my lips as I covered my eyes in destress at the horrible sight.
A small giggle bought me back to reality and when I slowly turned back around and gently took my hands of my eyes I saw Mia pulling her skirt back down as she stood up from the bed and when my eyes trained over to the boy still laying on her bed I realised I knew him. There on her little single bed was the curly haired boy that they all called Harry and everyone seemed to be obsessed with. My hand pressed to my sweaty forehead as I wiped some of it off.
"Eewww! Summer your so sweaty!! What have you been doing!" Mia scratches her face up and I was trying so very hard not to role my eyes at her because yes I knew I was sweaty but it wasn't quiet that bad. I slowly walked over toward my bed and grabbed my pjs because there was no chance I was leaving the house again tonight. My fingers found the pjs in my cupboard and I pulled them out and tucked them under my arm before I walked slowly towards the door again so I could get changed in peace, but that didn't quiet happen the way I had wanted.
The door was shut right in front of my face which caused me to jump backwards but this time I ran into something and all of a sudden the anxiety kicked in. My chest tightened and the world become blurry, my body felt numb and I couldn't do anything. My lungs left like they had just been lit on fire and the idea of how there was something both in front and behind me haunted me. My knees felt weak and I couldn't help but let them give way and my body to crumble to the floor, the tears came next, a quick steam of them running down my face as I tried to wile them off, I didn't want this to happen at all. I didn't want people to pity me like they did in school and I didn't want them look at me and treating me different, I just wanted to be a normal teenager. All my senses were out of whack so all I could here was the sound of my heavy breathing. I took a gulp of air and then counted my breathing in, I tried to allow calming thoughts into my head and it worked until a hand pressed between my shoulder blades.
My vision was blurred with tears so I couldn't see who it was and that scared me more and made it worst but slowly the hand moved in a circular motion and slowly the world started to come back into my head and my breaking returned to around normal, it was still a bit quicker but that was normal after a anxiety attack. I pulled my knees into my chest smokey and rested again the door and that's when I realised who's hand it was. Harry's! If course it's was! My blood boiled because I was mad but that quickly changed when I realised my pjs were laying on the floor in view of both Harry and Mia. I quickly reached for and moved them before may one could say anything.
My vision was still slightly blurred but it was better ask pushed my way from the ground. "Sorry." I muttered under my breath like I have always done, I knew it wasn't my fault at all because I couldn't really control them but they still made me feel bad for stressing everyone out.
"Summer I don't think it's safe for you to be walking after that thing." Mia says in her peppy voice and I wanted to lose it at her and tell her the 'thing' was a panic attack and she was the reason I had the thing in the first place, the words ',I don't, mind your own damn business' also ran though my head but I decided to be polite.
"I'm okay thanks Mia, I'm just going to get changed." My hand quickly pulled the door open and the cold breeze hit me in the face and the air felt so nice to allow into my awaiting lungs. I was just about to shut the door and leave for the bathroom when Mia started taking to me again but this time she seemed eager to get rid of me probably to go back to what her and Harry were doing earlier. "Okay see you later summer."
The clearing of a voice interrupted me this time and when I turned around I caught those blue eyes staring into my ugly brown ones that I really hated. "It's not safe summer so I will walk you." I shook my head to object but he cut me off, "I was done anyways and it's sorta on my way home, come on summer." His hand pressed to mine and my vision went blurry as I was dragged away from a Mia who I head mutter the words, "damn summer, why didn't you have to interfere" under her breath. But I didn't care honestly, I was just as entitled to that room as she was because I payed a third of the rent the same as she does, the into difference is her daddy probably still buys every little thing she owns for her. I wonder if daddy knows about her dirty habits.
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