My Saviour
“Everyone finds their true love one day” announced my psych teacher announced to the class. The rest of the kids smiled and started to whisper about who they thought was their quote on quote “true loves.” All I did was snicker at the complete lie of a statement and leaned back in my chair. While the teacher continued to drone on and on almost putting me to sleep I thought about other things I’d rather do. “Miss Jackson!” The teacher screeched in her obnoxious nasally voice. “Yes, Ms. Wilson?” I answered back in a mocking tone. “Come up here and share your thoughts on what love is.” She asked. I groaned and pushed back my chair and made my way to the front of the class. “Everyone talks about the term ‘love.’ Seriously, it gets annoying. Nobody needs to be drilled with the same incessant thought and belief that there is actually someone out there who won’t want you just for incredible sex or money. There will never be that one person who will stay faithful for one person and never have any thoughts that are provocative about someone that they think are attractive. Love is nothing but a fairytale belief that has been drilled into young children’s minds so they can grow up and be torn down when they grow up to see the reality of the world.” Every single jaw dropped in the room. Everything was quiet as well except for my footsteps as I made my way back to my seat. Everyone’s eyes stayed on me, even when the bell rang.
I exited the classroom with my head held high after such an incredible speech. I didn’t even think about giving a second glance at any of the students as I exited the classroom. Even though I looked confident outside I really was a nervous wreck on the inside. My thoughts and emotions were completely scattered as the end of the day neared. During the last period of the day, which happened to be English, I completely spaced out. My quiet thoughts & personal period was rudely interrupted by fingers snapping in front of my face. “’Sephone! I’ve been calling you for the past five minutes. What’s up with you today?” Isis asked. Isis Anderson is my best friend and will always be my best friend. Something about Isis is that she does not like to be ignored. Isis and I have known each other since we were both born. The funny thing is that we both were supposed to be born on the same day except she was born five days before me. She always likes to rub it in my face. “I’m sorry Ice. I’ve been having a hard time at home lately. You of all people should know.” I replied swatting her hands out of my face. “Well that’s exactly why I wanted to talk to you. My mom..” The teacher interrupted us by telling us we had ten minutes left of free period. Once the teacher turned around she automatically took me into her arms pulling me into a tight hug. I hugged her back tightly, quietly whispering, “It’s gotten worse Ice.” She nodded gently before whispering back “I know Seph. I know.”
The final bell rang, signaling it was time to get the hell out of the building. For me, going to school is an escape from the hell at home. I walked out of the swinging front doors and made my way down the sidewalk. As I started to conquer the daily three mile walk home, I noticed two moving trucks make their way down the familiar route that I always took home. I sighed and plugged in my headphones, letting the sound of musically inclined artists fill my ears and thoughts. I turned the corner, leading to the small neighborhood I grew up in. I spent my former childhood playing out in the streets with all of the kids. I remember laughing at almost everything. I remember never not being happy. I took a deep breath and let the negative thoughts and memories roll out of my mind. Growing up in a small town meant that everyone knew each other. Even though that was the case, some of us still had skeletons hanging in our closets. All I know is that I wish mine would be discovered. As I came to the end of my trek, I noticed the moving trucks parked in the driveway of the house that was across the street from mine. For a split second my mind began to wander and wondered who would ever want to live in such a town but all of the thoughts were quickly erased.
