WHY I KILLED MYSELF

GIRL

This lifes been hard. This lifes been rough.

Ive been through things, and iv'e hade enough !

LIFE IN SCHOOL

They call me names and make me cry

They beat me up and ask me why

''Why are you so stupid"  is what they say

And it gets worse as I try to walk away

They come at me and knock me down

They spit on me and drag me around

I block it out with my day dreams  because.......

Daydreams aren't as bad as realities themes

FRIENDS <<< ?

How I spell friends is with a question mark

Cuz I never had those from the start

Friends to me is another empty piece of my heart

Friends are that never lighting spark that stays in the dark

HOME

My family .......... Just me and my dad minus one

Cuz my mother was shot in the head with a gun

They came in one day to rob my place

My mother hid in the closet underneath the staircase

They found her and grabbed her by her waist

Raped  her and beat her left bruises on her face

And when they left they left no trace of the horrible things I  know have to embrace

My dad is a drunk who drinks away the pain

He takes his anger out on me then apoligizes out of shame

He tells me that he loves me but then beats me for little reasons

My life has no meaning My life has no season

FUTURE

I want to be on TV

But they tell me that wont never come

They as in myself, my dad, my classmates, and this cold, heavy  gun

This life has been hard This life has been rough.

I've gone through things, and iv'e had enough!

 (put's gun to head)

Anticpates, thinks about the pain

To scared to to pull the trigger

Shaky hands decieve her brain

Then all of a sudden she feels the urge to shoot

She counts to three 1.......2..........2.........2 and 1/2....3

BANG ,    SHE'S THROUGH