dear namjoon,
why is everyone leaving me? as i watched them walking away one by one, i couldn't help but to ponder what i had done. did i do something wrong? are my sacrifices not enough? sometimes i tell myself that if they don't want me to be a part of their life, then so be it. that's why i built these walls around me. .so i could protect myself. .so they won't hurt me.
but i want to have someone by my side who'll truly love me and care for me, you know. i want someone whom i'll be dedicating my love to other than you but. .look at me. i was always and will always be the one being left out. it's as though i'm just everybody's option.
so perhaps this really is my destiny. . .
to be alone all by myself.
