HEART'S DESIRE

MY FIRST LOVE

'I was inlove  and the feeling was even more wonderful than I ever imagined it could be.'......

HI.My name is Steph Tuazon studying in UMak.I had my first love since I was in gr.9,and his name is Gab Cruz.He's my classmate since we we're in gr.8,he's handsome,tall,kind,and a fun to be with person.Yes we're friends but I didn't expect that it can be more than just friends.We were in gr.9 he still my classmate,and I didn't notice that he's already my close friend.We used to have that oh so called 'playful fights' ,pinching our cheeks of each other everyday.Our classmates noticed that our closeness,they started to tease the two of us as couples etc but we don't care about it because we both know that we are only 'friends'.One day I realized that I already had a 5% crush for him hahaha,I told my friends about that,and I don't know that they ad a group chat with him and they told him that I had a crush for him and that was so embarrasing for me but he our closeness is still there it didn't change until one day when we are on our way home my friend made a dare to him,he needs to hold my hand for 10 seconds .When he touched my hand I felt something different,it is like I have butterflies on my stomach and my heart started to beat abnormally hahaha yeah it's kinda weird and started that day I am feeling awkward already especially when our classmates teases the two of us.Everyday I always notice myself looking at him and I don't even know why haha!When he smile I automatically smile too that kinda weird for me hahaha,everytime he text me I always reply to him immediately,until one day I already realized that I AM ALREADY INLOVE WITH HIM.I told my friends about that but they immediately told him about my feelings for him,and to my surprise he was also inlove with me.That time I feel really happy,because the person I love also loved me back.I toldmy mom that I had my first love and she supported me ,she also want that guy for me,she always teases me about Gab and me.Gab and I started to text,chat,call,talk everyday.I always save the messeges that I get from him.We had an endearment that 'kulit-liit' that sound unique for me hahaha.Yes we are not a couple but we are enjoying our accompaniment with each other because I know time will come that our feelings will fade so I told myself to enjoy and be contented for what we are.I made him as my inspiration in my studies.Days and months had passed I started to feel his cold treatment to me that made me sad every night I always think what did I do?why is he acting like that? Thoughts,thoughts,thoughts but I acted like nothing I still managed myself until one day I realized  that his feelings for me was already fading.Yes its hard and it hurts but life goes on.I need to accept the fact that our lovestory was not for lifetime but we can still remain as friends.I enjoyed the time that we spent together and I didn't regret that I loved him.One year had passed I moved on by the help of my loving friends and family,yes his my first love but Im too young for heartbreaks so instead of crying I made myself busy,I always spend my time with my friends and family and focused on my studies.My experience was unforgettable because He onced made me happy but as they say 'People come and go you need to deal with it' they come to our lives for a reason because God planned it for us to learn like me ,I learned how to love,how to manage my time for studies and relationships and also I learned the most that 'When you really love a person,you need control yourself for you not to be hurt the most', do not give all your love especially when you are in young age

When first love ends,you feel like you're drowning desperately gasping for air,reaching for help,but the hand you've trusted for so long is the one pressing you down,keeping you under.But first love is not only love.Its not the best the best love ,or the last love .First love is first,and its wonderful and amzing and new,but first is not synonymous with forever and first is definitely not connected,whatsoeverto final.Its called  your first love because its just that---- your first.Not your last.

Love is very tempting ,we need to control ourselves when we are inlove.Love can hurt you but it gives you lesson to your life.Love can wait,we are too young for heartbreaks!We must enjoy and cherish every moment that we have here in this world.Sometimes in life your situation will repeating itself until you learn your lesson.