Avengers Chatroom Misadventures

Real Life

A/N- There is a little boyxboy as "small as the head of a pin" at the end of this chapter. Enjoy.

Alice :)

Steve's POV

The only sound in the training room is the creak of the hinges and the thump of my fist in the punching bag. I'm putting all my strength into each punch. It's been weeks since I have been able to fully let go. When Loki's here with me I hold back. I don't want him to see the strength I possess, I don't want him to be afraid of me.

"Captain of America?" I turn to find Thor standing there. I had recognized his voice but it was so low that I didn't honestly think it was him. I stop and turn to face him completely.

"Hey Thor," I say laughing but his face stops me. The usually jovial Asgardian is looking at me with more seriousness than Bruce after Tony tries to provoke the Hulk.

"May I speak to you, man to man?" He asks and I nod.

"I want to discuss my brother with you," he says and I instantly tense. I don't know what he's going to say but I'm hoping it isn't a threat to my life.  

"What about him?" I ask and Thor motions for us to sit on one of the benches, we sit and I'm very aware of how much taller Thor is than me.

"I want to make sure you truly care for him," Thor says and I smile.

"I've told Loki my feelings more times than I can count. I love him Thor."

"My brother is a complex god. He turns all his emotions toward anger. He prides himself on being unemotional and uncaring but he isn't. Hurt, pain, love he does feel them and they scare him. The fact that he loves you and has admitted it to everyone is a step in the right direction but I can not help but feel like he is making himself vulnerable," Thor says and I nod.

"Are you worried that he'll turn bad if I hurt him?" I ask and Thor shakes his head.

"No I am worried he will stop trying if you hurt him," Thor says and I look at him.

"Thor I don't know if you realize this but I don't just start relationships without consideration. I had no intention of telling Loki I liked him, at first I was going to just treat him like a person. Then we started talking and I could tell he needed a friend, so that's what I decided to be. I was happy being his friend if it made him happy. Then he told me how he felt and it was like my heart burst. I want him to be happy as much as you do," I say and Thor nods before clapping me on the back.

"I am glad we had this talk Captain of America," he says.

"I'm glad too. I was almost certain you were going to come here and threaten my life if I hurt Loki," I say laughing.

"It is not I who you would have to fear, it is Loki. He if completely capable of adequate revenge against anyone," Thor says giving me a smile before he stands. He leaves the room just as Loki comes in. The two nod to each other before Loki sits next to me. 

"Hey Loki, is everything okay?" I ask, he usually texts me when he's about to come down here.

"Of course, I was hoping to talk to you alone for a moment," he says and I nod he grabs my hand and I instantly tense.

"What's wrong?"

"I was thinking about what Fury said, about coming out to the public..." he trails off biting his lip, I pull him against me and he presses his ear to listen to my heartbeat before continuing, "I don't know if we should go public. Human's are blinded by their own bias and prejudice and I know that you want to save everyone. I don't want people refusing your help because of their hate. If they were to get hurt because of it I know that you would blame yourself for not being able to help them. On the other hand, being "out" as Midgardians call it, would be able to let people who are struggling with their orientations know that they aren't alone and that there's nothing wrong with them. Sexuality is so much easier in Asgard. There isn't heterosexuality or homosexuality or bisexuality or any other sexuality, there's just love and existence. I honestly don't know what the best course of action would be," Loki says laying his head on my shoulder.

"Honestly, I don't either. I don't think there's really any right answer in this situation. We'll have to discuss it more in depth, maybe find some sort of middle area where we can still help people who are struggling, without coming out to the mass public," I say.

"It'd probably be easier for you if you weren't dating me. A lot of people who would be okay with you seeing a man, won't be okay with you seeing me," Loki says softly.

"Hey, I don't care what they think of you...I mean I care, I want them to treat you with respect, but my love life is my love life not theirs, okay Loki?" I ask kissing him. 

"Okay," Loki says giving me a soft kiss.

"Do you want to go play Frisbee?" I ask.

"Actually I have an idea for a work out, it's just as hard as Frisbee and a little more enjoyable," Loki says with a wink before pulling me toward the showers.

A/N- Thor is a good brother. He seems to really care for Loki, just like I do. Anyway I'm sorry to say that I'll be slowing down on my writing while I'm at home for holiday break, which starts tomorrow. But I promise to write as much as I can when I get back to school.

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