For The Depth Of Me

Chap.1 Haunted Past

Darkness, Isolation, Cold...
Nowhere to turn, nowhere to hide. I tug on my metal chains harder than before - desperate to escape from this place. I tug again, "Chink" and nothing happens, I slide down the slimed wall in defeat and break into a sob. I use all the energy I have left in me to scream - tears surge past my eyelids dancing their way around my bruised cheeks, adding a burning fire to every place they touch.

Suddenly the door opens, I keep quiet quickly sniffing before he comes in, by him I meant my captive - the one who leaves me here day in & day to out, the one who took my life away and left me in pieces; pieces I can't even put back together.

"Keep the fucking noise down!" He barks at me as if I'm some wild dog, he walks near me with the strong smell of booze and weed. My body tenses in fear, I hunch my bare knees to my chest as he comes closer and my loosed curls hiding the frightened look in my eyes. I tentatively watch him as he moves closer, he leans in closer smelling worse than he did before. He strokes my face, tracing all the bruises with his thumb with a sickening look on his face. He continues to stroke me while looking at me - he doesn't seem to care or realise the physical and emotional pain he has caused me. He raises his right in air, before I can even react his hand connects to my cheek. I gasp in pain with no energy to scream. I turn my head to him my eyes filled with fear and pain "Please, d-don't hurt me" I beg. His face scrunches up, eyebrows digging down his face to say he was confused; he breaks into a hysteric laugh.
*End of Flashback*

"Chanice, it's time to take your meds. Chanice, Chanice can you hear me?" A voice pulls me out of my wild imagination, I look at my nurse Callie and give a small sad smile. "Sorry, I was daydreaming" I rub my temples with a shaky hand, I blink hard trying to hold in tears. Callie gives a sympathetic smile as she grabs a cup of filtered water for me to drink. "Here drink this to calm your nerves down" I give a thankful smile as I take a small sip, "Dreaming of your past again?" She asks, already knowing the answer to her own question. I nod as I intertwine my fingers together looking at my ring.

That ring was given to me by my boyfriend, it was a promise ring; my boyfriend died over a year & a half ago. The day he died was when I was going to tell him I was carrying his baby, it was his 19th birthday then but my surprise was ruined and so was my life.
*Flashback*
We were walking down the street hand in hand, having conversation about going back to spend the day in his mother's house. We just came out of the mall and we were going towards his car. So far the day went so well for him & I and there was one more thing I needed to tell him. A red Toyota pulled up unto the curb beside us; Devontè's face changed as he noticed the car, he let go of my hand and stood in front of me with his hands cupping my face. He cleared his throat and stared long and hard into my eyes, something in me was telling me something was wrong - really wrong. "Baby you know I love you right?" He asked, I nodded confused with this situation. "Okay I need you to do something, on the count of 3 I want you to run but don't look back okay? I need you to promise me this" His hazel eyes stared into mine with a hint of seriousness and something I couldn't pick up. "I promise" I said without asking why. He kissed my forehead then my lips, the tinted windows from the front rolled down revealing a guy in shades and a black bandana covering his mouth and nose. "Hurry up lover boy, we have shit to do!" He yelled. Devontè looked at the guy then looked back to me. "I love you Chanice" He gave me a long kiss before pulling himself away, "I love you too" a voice in my head was telling me this was goodbye and I couldn't help but listen to it. "Do what I told you to do" he said, I nodded and turned around. "1,2,3!" I started running as quick as I could, a gun shot was fired but I refused to look back - tears streamed down my face because I knew what happened, I continued to run making it around the corner. "Nigga let's roll and catch the girl!" A voice said, tires screeched and I could hear the car coming after me, I began to run faster; unlocking a speed in me I didn't know I had, but sadly I wasn't fast enough. The car swerved to a halt in front of me and left me to stop in my tracks I tried to look for a place to run but I couldn't, two guys came out the car and grabbed me - I kicked and fight but they were too strong for me, I was hauled into the car and it was shut behind me...
*Flashback ended*

I pull myself out of my thoughts, it's too much for me to think of; for the past six months I've been in this hospital and last year I was a slave to guy and his gang members, abused, raped, and made fun of in different ways that I didn't know was possible. I was nothing to them and dead to everyone who I know. Sometimes I wonder why God decided to keep me alive if there's nothing worth living for, the amount of times I wished them guys could put a gun to my head and just shoot me - but no, I was kept alive to experience the pain, the sadness and guilt. Who knew life could be this way.

Author's Note - Hey guys! Okay so first chapter, hope you guys liked it please vote & comment what you think about this chapter. Second chappie should be out soon. Thanks for reading x
- Courtney-Crest ♛