warning! long ass lame chap ahead :) kahit ako tinamd mag basa nito haha sna lang hnd kayo ma bore :)) wag na kayo mag taka kung bakit mahaba to. siniksik ko na kc dito ang 4 na buwan na hnd ako naka UD pra isang push na lang haha so enough of the talk. Happy reads!!
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aly and den are sitting on the bed, facing the night lights of makati. nakasandal lang si den sa malapad na katawan nito while the latter is taking her time kissing den's exposed shoulder. both are still recovering from their all night love making at wla pa sa isip ang matulog.
"hnd kpa ba inaantok?" asked ly while brushing her palm on den's arm.
den rest her head on ly's shoulder kya malayang nahahalikan ng huli ang pisngi nya. "can't sleep. ."
"and why is that doc lazaro?" she asked curiously but then, dennnise didn't budge and just stare at the bright city light outside. "you want us to stop this?" lakas loob na tanong ni alyssa at hnd nya alam why she felt a sting on her chest with the thought na matatapos nang to.
(you know that you can just snap out from this fucking dream and turn everything into reality!)
(i can't do that. . ayoko ng masaktan. i suffered much because of loving her at ayoko ng maulit yun. i'm fine with this. no strings attached. just sex. yun lang namn ang nag uugnay sa amin eh. pinagbibigyan lang namin ang init ng katawan namin--)
(ly, she wont give her fucking self to you kung init lang ng katawan ang kaylangan nya!)
(sabihin mo lahat ng gusto mong sabihin. but no way in hell that i will let my self fall for her again)
(then you're throwing the chance of real happiness, ly.)
(huh! real happiness is, when you bed a woman and let you reach heaven. .)
ly was brought back to her senses when den cup her face with her hands and started kissing ly on the face. "no. no. . " said den in between kissing her na parang nagmamakaawa. "please don't. ."
hnd na nappigilan ni den ang maiyak. hnd man sya cgurado sa pinasok nyang sitwasyon, iisa lang ang hinahangad nya, and makasama si alyssa at maipadama dito ang pagmamahal nya. and for the past days na nakasama nya ito alam nyang hnd nya na kakayaning mahiwalay pa dito.
"please don't. . ." she repeated while hugging alyssa tightly. like her life depends on it at pag bumitaw sya alm nyang ikamamatay nya. "i woke up every morning hoping to see you, ly. . n-ngayong nandito kna, i'm willing to do everything wag ka lang mawala sa akin. and if it means being your sex slave tatanggapin ko wag mo lang akong iwan"
alyssa knew that dennise is being serious with her words, but she can't help but let out chuckle hearing den's word. hnd nya tuloy mapigilang mapakagat ng labi just to supress her chuckle.
"natatakot lang ako. . i'm afraid na baka isang araw mag sawa ka na sa akin and. . a-and you will find another one kc wla namn akong silbi. . ni hnd ko alam kung. . kung pano ka--"
"heyy. . " ly, slightly distance den from her pra mapagmasdan ang mukha nito. she also dry her tears using her thumb dahil panay tulo ng luha nito.
iba nga cguro ang ibinubulong ng utak ni alyssa. but her action speaks louder than all the doubts she have in mind. hnd nya kayang nakikita itong umiiyak, it's been her kryptonite ever since.
she tried not to be affected since she came back, and yes, manage to get through it. pro ngayon, unti-unti nang nawawasak ang pader na binuo nya pra sa sarili. ang pader na inilaan nya pra dito. and now she can't do anything but to give in sa kung ano man ang ibinubulong ng damdamin nya.
