it kinda happened ➳ ls SLOW UPDATE

07

NIALL'S POV

Lou sent me the picture of H&L in the plane. I am still in the hotel and as I sit on my bed, I open tumblr and I upload the couple of photos that I have.

Anonymous said
You know, I kiss my best friend on the forehead too. This is what BEST FRIENDS too. I hate your blog and I'm going to block you

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Next time I'm gonna upload a pic of Louis licking Harry's nip you gonna tell my it's what BEST FRIENDS do. I'm gonna upload a pic of Harry's sucking Louis dîck u gonna tell me it's what you and u best friend do? go fuck yourself and block me

I've been really rude here but they deserve it. It's just annoying. I am trying to entertain myself but someone is always going to ruin my day.

When we were dinning last time, and when they told me that they wanted to come out during the break, I started to shake. Liam turned towards me and noticed. We didn't talk a lot about my account, he kept telling it was a bad idea.

But if they are really going to come out, I could become famous or something. People would see I am not a bad person. I told the truth. I said to them "It's a good idea." But I knew it wasn't really...

Louis hates talking about his private life. He is shy, he changed a lot when we became famous. He wasn't like that before, if I could say. Hiding this relationship was hard at first but finally they got over it. So, if tomorrow they were free, I feel like they would continue to be distant in public spaces. It drives me insane.

I want people to see how much they are happy together. When Louis touches Harry, both of their faces start to shine and they smile. They are just like that. They laugh all the time. They share so many things, and Louis had always been there for Harry, vice et versa. They deserve each other so much and hiding their relationship started to be normal, when in fact it isn't.

I remember three years ago when Harry told me he wanted to be free; hold Louis' hands in restaurants and kiss him just like straight couple do. If I asked him now, he would just tell me that it's not how their relationship works. So, I don't know if it's a good idea.

I said "I just want you to be happy." and they both smiled, their faces shining again. The babygate really started to affect Louis.

"What about doing it on my birthday?" Harry said, "It would be a beautiful birthday present."

At this moment, I lost my shit. When I said they were going to do it on Harry's birthday, I didn't know it was really going to happen... This is crazy. I wasn't comfortable. I excused myself and left the dinner. I went back in my room and I kind of, panicked.

I couldn't breathe anymore! I was shaking and my head hurt. I sat, and Harry came in my room.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Yes- No."

"You said you wanted us to be happy..."

"I do, trust me. It's just- I don't want it to change you."

"What do you mean?" He sat down next to me, and held my hand.

"It is going to change your relationship. And I don't want it. It's hard, a lot of people are going to be mad, I don't know. You both are just so good together." I said, trying not to cry.

"It is not going to. We are both really strong. I will support Louis, he will support me. That's how a relationship works."

"I know... But Louis, he became so shy. He is not like that. I don't think it's going to change anything. It is just going to bring drama and shit in your relationship." I hugged Harry, and smelled his shirt. He smells good.

"You're right, it is going to be hard at first. It's mutual, we've discussed it. Louis is totally okay with it, even if I know that it's going to be hard for him. I am his home, and he knows that I am here for him."

I slowly laughed, rubbing his back. "Could you stop this? Don't use your old words or our lyrics."

We finally looked at each other and went back at dinner. It was an intense day, to be honest. But I would not change anything. My babies are going to be free.

My babies are going to live.

ok idk about this fic anymore, I don't want to write feelings. I wanted to have an easy writing but I'm kinda struggling rn