Young Love

James imagine

"He convinced her to jump,promising her that he would catch her,but as soon as she started to fall...He was already turning around."-Unknown

Your POV:

I stood outside of the movie theatre.It was getting dark and cold.My jacket wasn't warm enough to keep my pale arms nice and warm.The theatre was starting to close and people started to pour out.

I was supposed to see the Lion King in 3D with James,my boyfriend.Today was suppose to be the day he made up all the other times he "ditched" our time together.

I sighed as the phone went to voice message again.I put my phone away and started to walk home.The movie was over and the theatre was done for tonight.For some odd reason,I had hope that he was actually coming tonight.That his promise was actually going to be kept.

Oh boy,was I wrong.

As I opened the door to my apartment,I broke down.I threw my bag to the side and collapsed on the floor.I cried into my hands and felt worthless.I thought he cared for me.I thought he loved me,but obviously I'm not good enough.My heart felt shattered and hollow,as if someone was digging a grave in my heart.Soon something dead would be there and they would cover them up.But instead of dirt,it would be pieces of my heart.

I sighed heavily as I picked up the phone off the little table on the side of the couch and dialed Kendall's number.

"He'llo?"He questioned into the phone.

"Kendall,it's (Y/N)."

"Oh hey (Y/NN)',wait-"He paused then spoke up again."what's wrong?"

"Oh uh,nothing.I was just wondering,do you have any idea where James is?"I asked stuttering a bit.

"He just stopped by telling me not to..."His voice trailed off.

"Told you what?"I said standing up.

"Not to tell you he was out and that he couldn't come over."He answered,but I knew he was lying.

"Tell me the truth before I come over there and snap-"

"Okay,okay."He said interrupting me."He told me not to answer the phone if it was you and if I did to tell you that his car broke down."I sighed into the phone and closed my eyes.

"Did his car really break down?"I asked into the phone.Tears threatening to come out like a waterfall falling over a ledge.

"Well,the guys over,I guess I shou-"

"Did his car break down?"I growled into the phone.

"No."Was his answer before the anger filed me up.I chucked the phone and watched it as it smashed into pieces.

"How could he?"I whispered to myself as my phone started to go off.I grabbed my purse and took the phone out.

I looked at the screen and saw James' number.

I walked over to the balcony and chucked it over the ledge.I walked back into my apartment and ran to my bedroom.I walked over to my closet and took out his clothes.

"Son of a bit-"

"(Y/NN)'?"James' voice hummed behind me.

"You promised."I whispered to myself.

"What?"James asked walking closer to me.

"You promised."I shouted,turning around and looking at him.

"I know,but my car broke do-"

"Don't give me that bull James.Kendall told me your car didn't break down.Come on tell me something."I looked at him full of anger.

"What do you want me to say?"He shouted at me.

"The truth.I wanna hear you say that you are done with this relationship because I can feel it,James,I can feel it."

"(Y/NN)',I love yo-"

"Lies James.That's all your giving me in this.This whole you and me thing is full of lies because of you.Why didn't you tell me?"I asked,tears trickling down my rosy cheeks.

"Tell you what?"He asked walking a bit closer to me.

"That you were using me."I stumbled on my words and bit my lip.I held back another break down,I can't cry that bad in front of him.

"Use you?"James whispered.

"Yes,use me.All you wanted was Sarah.You wanted my best friend so you used me as bait.I just want to know why.Why would you even do such a thing?Yes you aren't the one getting hurt here,but I am.My heart is shattered,I feel numb inside.So numb.I have wasted my life on you because I believed you still loved me.That when Sarah back stabbed me and told me about you and her that it was a lie.I still had hope for us and every bit of it that was left,is now completely gone."I whimpered out the last part before pushing him out of my room and sliding down the door.

"But wait,(Y/NN)'-"He shouted through the door,pounding against it.

"Just go away James.Go live life without me.Go live with Sarah and have fun.That;s what you wanted after all."I said through the tears.My head was pounding now from all the crying.

"You know that isn't true."He shouted again through the door.

"I don't know, what I know anymore.I'm so lost.I'm so broken at this point.I'm worthless and I-"

"You are not worthless."He interrupted me."You are perfect.You are beautiful and flawless all around.I can't lose you.Not again Val'."He sighed through the door.

"How do I know you're not lying to me?How do I know that waht you said was just lies?Huh James?"I questioned.

"Please (Y/NN)',one more chance."He pleaded.

"I've given you enough chances.You lost them.All of them."

"But I can't-"

"I thought you were going to catch me?"I questioned turning around and facing the door.

"What?"He questioned.

"I thought you said you were going to catch me and never let me go."I said as I tried to clam myself down.

"I did."James answered back.

"No you didn't.You turned around and left me to hit rock bottom."My breaths were now at hesitation.

"Baby,please hear me out."James pleaded.

"You left me to drown in the ocean."I whimpered.

"No,I would never-"

"If you would never leave me to drown out in sea.If you would never just leave me to hit rock bottom.If.All these ifs are running through my head right now,James.You have made me a complete mess and I need you to leave.Now."I heard him sigh and then his footsteps started to fade away,until the front door opened and shut.I pounded my fist against the door and let out a soft groan.

"Why do I do this to myself?"I whispered to myself as I rolled my sleeve up and looked at all the scars.I got up and walked towards my bathroom.

Maybe life would be better without me.

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